K.A.A.N. - My Mind (Cameras Remix) lyrics

Yeah, Lawd
Uh huh, eh
Alright, hm
I got stress and animosity that's running through my
Terrified I'll never make it wasted all this fucking
I got stress and animosity that's running through my
I'm terrified I'll never make it wasted

I can't lie
Gotta tell the truth and to be honest with you my passion faded
I cannot recall the reason why I rap
When my pain remains and I'm still lonely
I am not famous
I'm a local nigga
With a loss of focus
How did that happen
Dropped out of school I don't need college
Living with my mom and my fucking father
And when they used to fight
That shit would keep me up
I got no sleep in my adolescence
And you wonder why that motherfucker odd and now
My grades slim, now my teacher wanna talk it out
But what the fuck is there to speak about when every other day I'm coming home to another World War
Don't nobody give a fuck about nigga or the pain that you feeling inside
That you would really confide
And I would never collage
A different life than the one that I live
And I was giving my all
With everything that I did
I was tryna paint a couple pictures for these kids
To see what I saw
When seated in my seat
Cause you living in a [?]
And everything is sweet
You ain't even got a care in the world said it must be nice
With a bunch of materials in your house that distracts from the fact that you're really all alone
I tried to make sense of the way that I've been guided
Scarred from my pain no real reason to hide it
Lost in this world with [?] assignment
And I can feel the negative energy in my silence
Meditating the moment to minimalize violence
Find the purpose in life
I feel like it's my assignment
I tried to help a handful of people with the rhyming
The reality is don't nobody even get it
Insinuating the flow
Disintegrating my words
I [?] the hearse and regulated the verse
I've elevated my worth
Disseminating the search
Preach to the poor minds
I'm nothing more than a hypocrite
A theoretical lyricist literally killing it I came in the game with a dissertation
You can savor the flavor
The sound is amazing
In love with the rhythm I give em a safe haven
Damn!
Lawd

I got stress and animosity that's running through my mind
I'm terrified I'll never make it wasted all this fucking time
And I got stress and animosity that's running through my mind
I'm terrified I'll never make it wasted all this fucking time

Every dime
All of my time it was spent
Invested inside of the craft
You probably couldn't even understand the effort that a nigga giving
When he put it in your mind and speak it into existence
And with the way I'm working for certain I need distance
And I would never quit admitted you with persistence
I'm giving you a vision of a hideous condition with the lyrics that I've written and song about my convictions
I never stop
I cannot be complacent
I need to get sober my soul is sedated
I've made a rendition of cynical sued em an intricate poet composed a prophecy pardon my pain is apart of the problem I pray and I ponder my peace is the departed ridiculous way I can deal with the grief
Contrary do you believe you would've never beseech
And they were never on the level of I
I've found a way to make it clear that I was trying to survive
My life in each line
Describing these times
My future is looking bleak
And I am mentally weak
I seek to find wisdom
Knowledge above all nonsense
I'm aware that the pain don't end
I won't break up and
The spirit of Amen treated the record of my past and telling em my sins
Damn!
Lawd!