K-Rino - Struggle Addiction lyrics

Touch that iron enough times
You start realising that it's pretty hot
But at what point do you
Stop touching it? Come on
You know it never works but
You keep doing it anyway
You know it never works but
You keep trying it anyway

Real question, why do I indulge in things
That make it seem like I'm in love with pain?
Everybody speculating why the rug was stained
Cause the sweat and tears dried
But the blood remained
Now I'm laying back thinking 'bout my cousin
Man i'm on some other sh-
Like when the subject change
And the moment that I walked inside
Judgement came cause, I ain't have a dozen
Chains like Clubber Lang
I guess you could say that
I sacrificed some pay
Cause, I chose not to sign my whole life away
But anything in hindsight seems
Suffice to say and even the broken clock is
Right twice a day
Now, my main affliction's a pain addiction
The same condition
But, I won't change prescriptions
So by definition I'm insane
The custom is scuffing
Cause only a fool keeps going
Back to receive nothing
I must have a struggle addiction
Cause, I won't change my troubled existence
I'm still living but something is missing
Keep doing the same thing
Leading to the same pain
I really must love this condition
Cause, I won't find another position
I'm too trifling and stubborn to listen
Keep doing the same thing
Leading to the same name

Now despite people's envious ways
I'm feeling fine only dream that you seem to
Have is killing mine
I showed love they wasn't
Thinking about showing
While I was bringing 'em up
I was sinking without knowing
Enabling the slick hearted to
Make my life harder
As I'm saving them from drowning
They pulling me underwater
Dead weight brings you down
I wasn't knowing that then
It's best to cut a loose string than
Try to sow it back in
I blame me for failing to move on
Only fools keep walking on glass
With no shoes on dedicated to my craft
It's been a turbulent ride
Sometimes it takes more away from
Me than what it provides
Still I keep coming back to
It and taking a beating
Like a person who just won't
Leave somebody that's cheating
And if your plan fell through a few times
Let me tell ya one of the main ingredients
Of success is failure

See, be true, see through
Every blatant and weak move
Deceitful people, Satan waiting to sweep you
Chase new breakthroughs, if
You're struggling, make do
You can run for ever but
You can never escape you
This learned behaviour was too
Vicious to discern
Never did you think that your life
Would be taking this turn
Nothing to be trusted at all
Even the kiss burns
Not knowing the feeling of having
Something when it's earned
Sadly, crafty people seeking to grab me
Into the bottomless misery bag, try to add me
Plus you
Now you in deep the pressure because you
Wondering if anybody actually loves you
Turn rat, one that you trusted in done that
Once that happens your confidence
Never comes back
Systems, twisted, spiritually conflicted
But, if you're listening then you're
In position to fix it