K-Rino - Suicide Note lyrics

To whom it may concern
I apologize for everything I've done
And all the trouble that I caused
All my humanistic flaws
And the problems I've probably put
All my people through
Inner peace was unattainable
The pain was unexplainable too deep for you
I'm sitting here wearing a
Suit never been worn
Blaming myself for world problems
Wishing I'd never been born
In a state of deep depression
For my soul ain't no lifting
Flashing back about life about moves
I would have made different
I heard it said that taking
Your own life is selfish
And never dealt with what I dealt with
Struggle to felt this helpless it's my life
So I choose whether to cancel or save
But on the other hand what right do I
Have to take something that God gave
I'm pretty sure there's some people in
The grave that died young
That would love to still be in
The game with breath inside lung
But, I'm sorry to disappoint them
Huh but in all modesty
I'm about to terminate my policy
And end this odyssey

How shall I kill me, let me count the ways
I've been devising and contemplating
Murder methods for days
Should I take a bottle of pills
Drift off and never wake up
Thrust myself from a bridge and break
Up my bodily make up
Should I prop my back against the
Wall and pop my gat
To forcefully extract exploding
Brain material or visit Doctor Jack
To get a lethal dose of
Arsenic, injected in my heart, causing it
To pause when high poison gets off in it
But then again another killing
Plan that I'm feeling, man
Is to rope my neck then stand on a
Chair then dangle from the ceiling fan
Or take some gas since expiration is fast
Heads thrown but now I'm about to make my
Own future the past tense
So I'ma write this note and leave this Earth
But by the time y'all read this I can
See that tryna save me' will be needless
'Cause yesterday I felt terrific
But the world is wealth addicted
Injected depressive thoughts
Now my wounds are self-inflicted

In my room, my mind made up
No chance for survival past suicidal
On my bed is a Quran and a Bible
But, it's too dark to read 'cause all
I've got is a candle lit i can't handle it
Phone been ringing all night but
I ain't answered it
Huh, I got my Sam Cooke CD on
About to satisfy all the snakes and
Hypocrit's who wanna see me gone
That's when I turn the TV on
And I noticed the needy woman living
On the streets with 2 children
Without a home
Watching the news, I see a lady breaking down
For a chalk line on the ground
Where her sons body was found
Eliminated by a bullet from a cops gun
I'm witnessing wars where
Bombs killed inoccent
People when they drop one
And folks appreciate life for what it is
And little kids laughing just made
Me realsie I wanna live
Now I'm grateful for my life and
Every breath I ever took
Now I can fold this letter up and
Place it in my Black Book