K-Rino, Ashlei Mayadia - The Me You Don't See lyrics

Hey, come into my house for a second
What house?
Yeah, my real house, listen to your boy

I been tore down by the world
Now it's time to rebuild
I'm real enough to call you fake and you
Too fake to tell me that I'm real
Out of your two sides, which one will we know
The real side behind closed doors or
The one that you show
When I'm alone I talk to myself
That's strange to you i think we all do
You crazy if you don't in my view
Showing as much of my game
Face the world can consume
But how do I carry myself when
It's just me in a room don't get me wrong
I thank the good Lord
For blessing my stillness like ignorance
Seems to get more blessings than realness
Positivity I condone
But still I'm prone to do evil
Have you ever felt alone inside
A room full of people
If we could read minds for a day
And hear what folks ain't speaking
You might be shocked if you knew what
Some of these people were thinking about you
(yeah you) I know that I'm being felt
You can tell them lies to me
But, you can't lie to yourself
The side of me that you don't see
That shows the pain and the misery
That I'm going through, but never showing you
But when I'm all alone, this is what I do

My bad side I'm guilty
You're barely checking that
I dream that I shed tears
The second that God read me my record back
I activate thoughts and sharpen my wit's
The deeper you go inside my heart
The darker it gets
I rarely speak about my street wars
The things that I've done
The youngster that tried to kill me in 2001
Or was it 2002, I can't remember myself
I can't forget where I came
From 'cause I never left
Now if I wanna stack
I gotta bring my serious mind back
I put nothing past nobody and
It's a period behind that
I been the villain and the victim
But my love is blind black
If you ain't sure you heard me right
Then rewind that line back
I take the bad with the good
'cause they feed each other
I might be tripping
But, it's kinda like they need each other
Because without good
The bad wouldn't be seen and such
And without the bad
The good might not mean as much

The side of me that you don't see
That shows the pain and the misery
That I'm going through, but never showing you
But when I'm all alone, this is what I do

The me you don't see
The side that tends to play men
The side that daily ask God to
Forgive him for the same sin
The side of me that's scared to fail
And won't face the ill winds
That occasionally doubts the existence
Of real friends
The real me, not the MC that brag and boast
The man who underappreciates women that
He love the most
The side of me that wanna give up
But will never admit it
Who know the move I pulled was out of line
But still went and did it
I'm tryna gather good intentions
And abolish what's left
The man that's sitting inside the hoe
House with knowledge of self
Do I think it's fair I make
Music that not many jam
Or hourly say I ain't tripping
But inside I really am women come and go
Relationships was never what they could be
Some loved me
But, I don't think none of 'em understood me
'Cause if they did
We'd still be together possibly
But, I can't cry about it 'cause whatever
Happened was meant to be yeah

The side of me that you don't see
That shows the pain and the misery
That I'm going through, but never showing you
But when I'm all alone, this is what I do