Kendrick Lamar - Auntie Diaries lyrics

Heart plays in ways the mind can't figure out
Heart plays in ways the mind can't
Heart plays in ways the mind can't figure out
This is how we conceptualize human beings

My auntie is a man now
I think I'm old enough to understand now
Drinking Paul Masson with her
Hat turned backwards
Motorola pager, off-white Guess jacket
Blue Air Max's, gold chains, and curl kit's
'93 Nissan wax job, the earliest
Big social, big personality, vocal
Played the underground verbatim
And stayed local my auntie is a man now
I watch him and his girl
Hold their hands down
Tip of the avenues under
Street lights made his
Thinking, "I want me a bad
Bitch when I get big"
They hug on the corner like California king
Cold hand all up her skirt
Cars whistling down the road
See, my auntie is a man now, slight bravado
Scratching the likes from lotto
Hoping that she pull up tomorrow
So I can hang out in the front seat
Six by nines keeping the music up under me
My auntie is a man now
Asked my momma why my uncles
Don't like him that much
And at the parties why they always
Wanna fight him that much
She said, "Ain't no tellin'
Niggas always been jealous because
He had more women
More money and more attention made more envy
Calling him anything but broke
Was less offending"

My auntie is a man now
I think I'm old enough to understand now
Drinking Paul Masson with her
Hat turned backwards
Back when it was comedic relief to say
"Faggot" faggot, faggot, faggot
We ain't know no better
Elementary kids with no filter, however
My auntie became a man and I took pride in it
She wasn't gay, she ate pussy
And that was the difference
That's what I told my friends in second grade
She picking me up from school
They stare at her in the face
They couldn't comprehend what
I grew accustomed
We pull off bumpin' Quik like it was nothing
My auntie is a man now, what a relationship
I grew up fast, I needed no one to babysit
He gave me some cash then gave me some game
Cherry freshener on the dash
I never complained
She even cut my hair at the pad
Was loving my fade
The first person I seen write a rap
That's when my life had changed
House full of demo, smoke stuck on the window
Cameras on the microphone
All women and men though
My auntie was a man now, we cool with it
The history had trickled down
And made us ign'ant
My favorite cousin said he's
Returning the favor
And following my auntie with
The same behavior

Demetrius is Mary-Ann now
He's more confident to live his plan now
(Talking to the world's gonna bring you down)
But the family in disbelief this time
(Talking to the world's gonna bring you down)
Convincing themselves, "He ain't
Living discreet, he's fine"
(Talking to the world's gonna bring you down)
They said they never seen it in him
But I seen it (Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
The Barbie dolls played off
Reflection of Venus (Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
He built a wall so tall
You couldn't climb over
He didn't laugh as hard when
The kids start joking (Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
"Faggot, faggot, faggot
" we ain't know no better
Middle school kids with no filter, however
I had to be very mindful of my good cousin
I knew exactly who he was
But I still loved him
Demetrius is Mary-Ann now
I mean he's really Mary-Ann
Even took things further
Changed his gender before Bruce
Jenner was certain
Living his truth even if it
Meant see a surgeon
We didn't talk for a while
He seemed more distant
Wasn't comfortable around me
Everything was offensive
But I recall we both had
A sick sense of humor
Made raw, but time changes all

Demetrius is Mary-Ann now
Remember church, Easter Sunday?
I sat in the pew, you had stronger faith
More spiritual when these dudes
Were living life straight
Which I found ironic 'cause the pastor
Didn't see him the same
He said my cousin was
Going through some things
He promised the world we living in
Was an act on abomination
And Demetrius was to blame
I knew you was conflicted by
The feelings of preacherman
Wondering if God still call you a decent man
Still you found the courage to
Be subservient just to anoint
Until he singled you out to prove his point
Saying "Demetrius is Mary-Ann now
Church, his auntie is a man now, " it hurt
You the most 'cause your belief
Was close to his words
Forcing me to stand now
I said, "Mr preacherman
Should we love thy neighbor?
The laws of the land or the heart
What's greater? I recognize the study she
Was taught since birth
But that don't justify the feelings
That my cousin preserved"
The building was thinking out loud, bad angel
That's when you looked at
Me and smiled, said, "Thank you"
The day I chose humanity over religion
The family got closer, it was all forgiven
I said them F-bombs, I ain't know any better
Mistakenly, I ain't think that
You'd know any different
See, I was taught words was
Nothing more than a sound
If ever they was pronounced
Without any intentions
The very second you challenged the
Shit I was kicking
Reminded me about a show I did out the city
That time I brung a fan on stage to rap
But disapproved the word that she
Couldn't say with me you said, "Kendrick
Ain't no room for contradiction
To truly understand love, switch position
'Faggot, faggot, faggot
' we can say it together
But only if you let a white girl say 'Nigga'"