K.Flay - T-Shirt lyrics

I am lost
I've been accosted by the forces of my pride
I am clueless, i am useless and I've got no
Hole to hide in don't know happy, sad
Which is worse? And there's a dead
Girl's name on my T-Shirt

My list of life goals is long and it
Was a tightrope that I was walking on
Pressure surmounting and I'm just
Amounting to nothing
Need to continue the counting
Waiting for something to come when I know it
Won't be like I dreamt and I would
Have spent precious time that I'll never get
Back because you've only got one shot
Deliver attack

People like extroverts
I'm just the next best girl
Till someone else works
Three cheers for a positive attitude
Internally I shout "What's the
Matter with you?!"

I'm not always an optimist
Steady on the outside but I'm
Not on top of it
My aspirations can't be for focus or
Set so high in a take
A spill off this preconceptions all I'm
Left with is no direction
Expecting tomorrow's gonna bring something
Better than today but the day's far by and
The sky's stayed gray

Fatigued, I'm on a siege but
My doubts in the clouds, hang low
And I'm alone in my room
This tomb is full of silence
Just me, myself, and I

Second guessing my blessing
Is missing sitting
At my desk just stressing
Plotting all my stepping stones
Gotta make a stack of dough before I
Turn into a sack of bones

I am lost
I've been accosted by the forces of my pride
I am clueless, i am useless and I've got no
Hole to hide in don't know happy, sad
Which is worse? And there's a dead
Girl's name on my T-Shirt

I was hoping that I wouldn't have
To think about growing up
Fairy god mother gonna show up with a golden
Platter telling me that I'm set for life
All I gotta do's enjoy the ride

Subconsciously I believed I'd be
Free of the demons
That plague a quarter life crisis no
I will not be that you cannot stop me
But where am I headed?
I'm sick of my own surprises
My own surprises

Guises of people I see on TV
Alive but what is this life and
What does it mean to me?
The questions roll like
Raindrops on windshields
Crowds full of people who does this
Can still searching for images that
I was made in walls of false
So beaten they cave in

People are appeased by Monday
Future needed know is music the root for me?
4 am I'm up again
See a re-envisioning failure up ahead
But, I slap on a smile and a happy face
Gushing, saying "Everything's going
Just great"

What happened to my confidence?
Now it's just discord
Know it could be worse but this
Wasn't what I wished for
Wasn't what I wished for wasn't
What I wished for, wasn't what I wished for

Entertaining fantasies, record labels
Handing me, all my wishes
Granted as I rebel in my vanity
Decisions make my stomach ache and
And I'm breaking promises to
I'll just stick to what I think I felt

How can I follow my intuition when
I've got no true position?
I'm just drifting, just drifting
I am lost, I am exhausted
And I don't know where to go
I am foolish, I am useless
And I've got no room to grow
I'm a stranger in my own damn mind and
I don't know what I came to find
Still there's people dying

I am lost
I've been accosted by the forces of my pride
I am clueless, i am useless and I've got no
Hole to hide in don't know happy, sad
Which is worse? And there's a dead
Girl's name on my T-Shirt