Kirk Franklin, Sonny Sandoval, tobyMac - Let It Go lyrics

My momma gave me up when I was four years old
She didn't destroy my body but
She killed my soul
Now it's cold ‘cause I'm sleeping
In my back seat
I understand the spirit's willing but
My flesh is weak let him speak, let me speak
I never had a chance to dream
Ten years old and finding
Love in dirty magazines
Ms december you remember I bought you twice
Now I'm thirty plus and
Still paying the price

Had a sister that I barely knew
Kind of got separated by the age of two
Same momma different daddy so
We couldn't fake it
I saw my sister's daddy beat
Her in the tub naked
Take it serious the demons in a man's mind
The same man on rape charges
Now he's doing time
Crack followed and like daddy
Prison thirteen years haven't seen her
I guess she's traded tears for fears

Shout, Shout, let it all out
These are the things I can
Do without so come on
Come on I'm talking to you, so come on

Sex was how I made it through
Without someone to teach you love what
Else is there to do
See where I'm from they call you gay
Say you ain't a man
Show them you ain't no punk
Get all the girls you can
A simple plan that still haunts
Me even now today
Back to seventeen and got a baby on the way
No GED all I see is failure in my eyes
If you're listening and remember I apologize

I was raised falling in the church
Made mistakes and heard the Lord's
Calling in the church
After service in the parking lot getting high
Wanted to be accepted so bad
I was willing to die
Even tried to tell the Pastor
But he couldn't see years of
Low self-esteem and insecurities
Church taught me how to shout and
How to speak in tongues
But preacher, teach me how to live
Now when the tongue is done, help me

Shout, Shout, let it all out
These are the things I can
Do without so come on
Come on I'm talking to you, so come on

See I, See I, I just wanna let
It go, just wanna let it go, just let it go

Jesus please
On my knees can't You hear me crying
You said to put it in Your
Hands and Lord I'm really trying
You wasn't lying when You said
You reap what you sow
Like that night momma died
It's hard to let it go
You adopted me, cared for me, changed my name
But, I cursed at you
Lied to you and left you pain
It's not strange I can still
See it in my head to know for hours you were
Lying there in that bed

If you're listening to this record
If it's day or night
If your momma is still living
Treat your momma right
Don't be like me and let
That moment slip away
And be careful ‘cause you can't
Take back what you say
To my real momma if you're
Listening I'm letting it go
To my father, I forgive you
‘cause you didn't know that the pain
Was the preparation for my destiny
And one more thing Lord let my son
Be a better man than me

Shout, Shout, let it all out
These are the things I can
Do without so come on
Come on I'm talking to you, so come on