Quinn, Kit3 - ​change myself lyrics

Trying to understand why I'm here
Keep it to myself 'cause I'm too scared
Finally I can go, I won't say goodbye
It's my choice 'cause you know that I tried
Silver love in my drink
It's so hard, I try so hard to change
I try to be okay, I tried afterlife
All this pain will once subside

All my pain will last in the end
I wanna change, so hard to change
I hid my soul, it's just hard to change
Will you save my life? I'll die on my own

Trying to understand why I'm here
Keep it to myself 'cause I'm too scared
Finally I can go, I won't say goodbye
It's my choice 'cause you know that I tried

I'm sitting here with all the
Ghosts in my hallway
Thinking about the bettеr days when
All the problems fadе away
Fifty mil' that's all I want
And I'ma go away goin' somewhere far away
Spending all my better days
I see the you in me
And that shouldn't be possible
Run into some obstacles and
Turn it into particles lil' angel shawty
She done played me like a cardinal
Dove right in my armory and
Stole right out my arsenal
You're playing with my head
You won't get away with that
I like to do what I want
If you're okay with that
I'm on a short leash
Upside down just like a bat
My people watching
They plotting my aftermath
I'm feeling trapped in like
I've got claustrophobia
Endless mazes, I'm trapped in my utopia
Looking for a fix I
Bought straight from Cambodia
Being left on seen is like my worst phobia