Kur, Dot - Alone lyrics

'What they gives you, blood?'
'Three months, man'
'Whatchu doin in here anyway?
You oughta be home
With your momma how old are you boy?'
'Thirteen' 'Thirteen? Damn
The bastards must be runnin'
Outta niggas to arrest'

Check, my life fucked up
Can't complain a lot of times
I done fucked up
Had tough luck, I ain't have enough love
Plenty nights I went to sleep
Ain't have enough grub or I ain't eat at all
Niggas couldn't live my life nowhere to go
Sleeping outside I did that twice
No toilet paper, used socks
Did that some nights
What the fuck did I do make me live so trife
I need heat at night
My stomach growl it wake me up
How I sleep at night
The wet aroma in the air
How I breathe at night
Everything that's in the dark
Gon see that light so Imma see that light
I wanted to walk just like you
Wanted to talk just like you
Wanted to smoke wet and dip Ports
Just like you
Heard you fuckin niggas for money
C'mon that's not you
Damn, I really hope that that's not true
I know Jamie feel left out too
I gotta be her brother, her father
I gotta step up too
Sometimes I rather see you dead
Than to see you alive i hate you
Cause most the times you was
The reason I cried
Most of the times you was the
Reason that I hated myself
On my own, can't wait to say I made it myself
When I was down and needed you
You never came to give help
You should be ashamed of yourself
But I ain't pointing fingers
Man what happened to my mom
You like a fucking stranger
But I still love you more than life
And I can't fucking change it
Just know I got us
We'll be good when I get fucking famous
When I get fucking famous
It's like God don't care
It's like some nights I can't call on him
I don't trust a soul
Even my mom called the law on me
Told them I was trapping
That's the night I had jars on me
Why you wanna see your only son
With a charge on him

Dear mom
I used to blame you for the time you missed
But just know I still love you
And dear daddy
For some years you had a nigga sick
But just know I still love you
Cause my struggle only made me stronger
I made it through the
Abuse, through the tears, through the hunger
I remember nights when I couldn't sleep
Hoping you would finally come around and tell
Me you could take me home
But that was only but a dream
No reality in sight
A lot of times I wanted to end my life
But I kept the pushing
I was truly just a lost soul no love
Didn't even have a stable place to call home
When I looked in the mirror
I seen a blank face
And in my heart I can really feel it crying
A lot of deep emotion
A lot of things that I was feeling
Wondering how the fuck could you
Leave your son alone
In these places where these people
Only cared about a check
And had me eating grease out
The bottom of the pan
And them fresh ass whoopings when
You jumping out the tub
You know the one with the baby
Oil rubbed all on the belt
And I was only five
I used to wish ya would've fucking saved me
Would've held me tight and raised
Me like your baby
Would've been around and watched me
Grow into a man
But Im older now, I'm in the world
And now I understand