Lady Lamb - Oh My Violence lyrics

I used to believe I needed to be torn in two
Reached inside of by you
To be put back together better than myself
Do I need to have a gnaw
On the cud of my heart?
When I pine for my own love
And I can't seem to warm up to myself

I get lost in the losing
I get lost, lost, lost, lost

In the television where a sermon lurches
Toward me like a semi swerving what's worse
The pastor is cursing under his breath
He can't find the passage to back up
The argument he is having with himself
And I see a page in his Bible rip clean out
As I drift off to sleep staring through
The mountains in the motel painting
And my dream leaves it'self with me
I am falling from the peak
But instead of you, i'm calling out to me

I get lost, lost, lost, lost

In my waking life where I can't
Wrench me from my mind
Clear enough to wrench you from it too
In an attempt to step back
Into myself without bringing you
If I could see today in all it's glory
I believe I would be humbled
But the past, it has such a charisma
I feel it catching up
And I better run, run, so I don't get lost

In that scene where I cursed
You on the street
And you returned it to me with a look so kind
It's impossible to describe beyond
This perplexed mention
Now I bow my head in disbelief
At how loaded of a lesson
How loaded of a lesson
Now there is no greater challenge
Than taming my violence
Living with it long enough to rid it
In the lake of pure intention
In the wilderness of forgiveness
I'll show it compassion
I'll pull it to me 'til we both fall asleep