Leprous - On Hold lyrics

I am back here once again in the mist
In the mist without sight
Thought I fought my way back now I'm afraid
I'm afraid to lose hope
Will I ever be the man in control?
In control of his world
Open wounds that will not heal pull me back
Pull me back inside

And I i was always on the side
Of conformities and pride
Had no shelter from the rain and I
I was always on the side
So I kept my little lie
To be safe from what may come

To be lonely inside of my thoughts
A state that I tend to avoid
But, if I can't get to them
I think no one can
Moving forward nonetheless
I'm afraid this is how I've become
How can I sort it out?
When I don't even know what I'm looking for
If I only knew
Then at least I could deal with it
I don't even have a plan
On how to move forward from here

And I i was always on the side
Of conformities and pride
Had no shelter from the rain i
I was always on the side
So I kept my little lie
To be safe from what may come

All my life is on hold
In this moment
There's nothing here but darkness my life
Is on hold it's on hold
Until I've figured out this maze

I hold my breath and count to ten maybe then
It will all go away
Distraction strategies may work but only
Only for so long

I i was always on the side
Of conformities and pride
Had no shelter from the rain i
I was always on the side
So I kept my little lie to be safe from
What may come come
And I i was always on the side
Of conformities and pride
Had no shelter from the rain

My life is on hold
In this moment
There is nothing here but darkness my life
Is on hold it's on hold
Until I've figured out this maze my life
Is on hold in this moment
There is nothing here but darkness my life
Is on hold it's on hold
Until I've figured out this maze