Listener - I'd Like To Offer You My Dearest Apologies lyrics

I'm a deer caught in the headlamp glow
Of your traffic jam life and so
Murderously i stand innocently all
Wrapped up into one here in your path
Crash and all i can think of is no
And all you can think of is no
No, I don't want to no, I don't need this
No, I don't know what to do
It's my last decision and it was so
Selfish i wasn't thinking of you
And now i've killed you and you've killed me
And i did it so stupidly, please, forgive me
I wanted it so bad crouched in
The darkness i couldn't wait either
Staring into your eyes
I wanted what i couldn't have
And that was so heartless
I saw the light and my legs began to rise
Why i waited until you came
Along? I don't know as i sit here in a pile
Of myself thinking about it all was it rash
Or was this my fate? i'm sure it wasn't yours
I'll take the blame
It was me who came into your path
If it's all the same, i'm really sorry
I can understand your families sad
And if you can't accept my apology please
Don't feel bad about
Cursing my name (atreyu)
I'm just a deer who got caught i got scared
And i forgot what it was i was doing
What i was pursuing
It's not the way i usually run my life
What a mistake
The whole time i'm asking: what am i doing?
Who is this running my thought process?
I wish i would have thought before
I did what i did and for that i'm sorry i
Offer you my dearest apologies