Louden Swain - Starin' at the Middle lyrics

Wanting I can not access
Wishing that I had you near
It always happens when I see dusk
When light begins to disappear

But, I'm starin' at the middle of
Starin' at the middle
Starin' at the middle of rain
And there's one more thing
Left for me to explain
I'm pullin' at the edges again

The screams so near can barely hold me
The loose threads are bars in my cell
The warden here he clears the signal
I wonder what it's like in hell

Yeah I'm starin' at the middle
Starin' at the middle
Starin' at the middle of rain
And there's one more thing
Left for me to explain
I'm pullin' at the trigger again

I'm wasted like an old train wreck
I'm rusted on the side of the tracks
And nobody notices

The water pours like a clean shower
The dirt begins to move and drain
The steel it sweats and smells like autumn
I think I want to breathe today

Yeah I'm starin' at the middle
Starin' at the middle
Starin' at the middle of rain
And there's one more thing
Left for me to explain
I never wanted any of this