Lowkey, ‎adrian - The Butterfly Effect lyrics

If you could go back, what would you change
What would you do again ever
Would remain the same
What would you give, and what would you keep
What would you take, and what would you leave

I see an old lady holding the door
As I tumble out my wheel chair
And roll to the floor
First thing in the morning
In the grocery store
Not sure if this alcoholics body
Can hold me no more
I hustled up enough change for
The whiskey in my hand
Tried to tell all the people
But they didn't understand
Too many years spent sleeping in the gutters
On my hands and on my knees
Eating from the rubbish
Roam the streets with very
Little keeping me sane
Too many twisted visions left engraved
Deep in my brain
Nightmares are right there and I
Don't think good thoughts
Happy memories became haze and days
When I could walk
Make me hate those that have
A life and could stand
Do you people know what I
Sacrificed for this land?
My aching heart can't feel the
Bladed glass in my feet
Don't take a glance cause I'm just a
Face you pass in the street
If you could go back, what would you change
What would you do again ever
Would remain the same
What would you give, and what would you keep
What would you take, and what would you leave

Evicted from my home couldn't scrape
Up the right rent no heat in there all I
Had was the lights left
Spent months eating sleeping shitting
In my mess
Thinking back to when my wife left
I was quite stressed
Guess all my addictions had got
The best of me sometimes I wish to change my
Fate or was it destiny look up to the sky on
Rough nights wondering why
I saw our baby girl pass in front of my eyes
Before it the thought of it tortured me
Only lived six days was born with deformities
Still the birth really filled me with joy
Even though I kinda hoped it
Would still be a boy
I was dealing with demons I
Carried with me daily
Wanted to carry on my name when
I had the little baby
Thinking in deep ways til my soul is torn
Of the bitter sweet day I came home from war

If you could go back, what would you change
What would you do again ever
Would remain the same
What would you give, and what would you keep
What would you take, and what would you leave

I roll out the hospital
On honorable discharge
I looked down saw my body
With horrible big scars
Brave face but it was bad at
Night I would break down i woke up and I was
Paralyzed from the waist down
Was in a coma for a few
Weeks before I closed my eyes
I was just another soldier with two feet
On all type of drugs that set me higher
Shot by my comrade official
Name friendly fire
Everyone was screaming but I only heard her
And everyone was crying but I only heard her
As I looked down to what I had done
I had a split second to
Contemplate what I had become
Like it or not trained to kill
Like it was a job
Wild or not she was just a child with a rock
Threat in my eye and the
Power in my left hand
I swear my finger slipped and
Then the trigger went bang