Mac Lethal - A 13 Year Old Wrote This About His Depression lyrics
[Mac Lethal - A 13 Year Old Wrote This About His Depression lyrics]
Lately, I've been feelin' lost
Nowhere I can turn, all the lines are crossed
Everything's collapsin'
I'm a pile of dust
I don't know what to do
There's no one I can trust
Not even friends, not even family
I don't have anybody but the
Creatures in my fantasies
And everything I do is making my life worse
I wanna cut my arms
'cause happiness should hurt
But if I do that, will it release the pain?
'Cause I can't stand the voices
That whisper in my brain
Or maybe I should throw myself
In front of a train
So these tears won't fall like the rain
Because I'm drowning, I swear, I'm drowning
I'm drowning in emotions
I'm drowning in my tears
Drowning in anxiety
I'm drowning in my fears
And I don't wanna be here
Because I'm drowning, I swear, I'm drowning
I'm drowning in emotions
Drowning in my tears
Drowning in anxiety and drowning in my fears
And I don't wanna be here
Because I'm drowning
And I just can't explain
The feeling of the pain
And I can't really tell if
It is driving me insane
And if I can't do all that
What's the meaning of life and all
The strength that I gotta gain?
I feel lost, I am lost
And if that isn't the truth
Why am I not finding all the
Happiness that life should cost?
I can't lie, i spent my whole life wishin'
I could just die
And though I'm alive, I feel like I'm dead
Because of the misery that lives in my head
Because, because I'm drowning, I swear
I'm drowning i'm drowning in emotions
Drowning in my fears
Drowning in anxiety and drowning in my tears
And I don't wanna be here
Because I'm drowning, I swear, I'm drowning
Drowning in emotions, drowning in my tears
Drowning in anxiety and drowning in my fears
And I don't wanna be here
Ey, uh
Dear Jacob, I appreciate your email
I wanna be careful and consider every detail
It sounds like you're hurt
Don't let the pain stop you
You might consider hirin' a
Therapist to talk to
It hurts my heart to hear you
Say you wanna cut yourself
I promise, man, self-mutilation doesn't help
I know it feels like you wish
That you were someone else
But maybe you should take time
To embrace and hug yourself
Seriously, man, be nice to yourself
You're only 13, friend when I was 13
I remember wishing my life would end
But this ain't the end
You found the beginning
You're not frowning, you're grinning
And you're not drowning, you're swimming
I'll help you on the boat
As long as you promise me
That you'll never lose hope
You're only 13
Your whole life's in front of you
Change your attitude
And the world could change because of you
Love you, bro!
Nowhere I can turn, all the lines are crossed
Everything's collapsin'
I'm a pile of dust
I don't know what to do
There's no one I can trust
Not even friends, not even family
I don't have anybody but the
Creatures in my fantasies
And everything I do is making my life worse
I wanna cut my arms
'cause happiness should hurt
But if I do that, will it release the pain?
'Cause I can't stand the voices
That whisper in my brain
Or maybe I should throw myself
In front of a train
So these tears won't fall like the rain
Because I'm drowning, I swear, I'm drowning
I'm drowning in emotions
I'm drowning in my tears
Drowning in anxiety
I'm drowning in my fears
And I don't wanna be here
Because I'm drowning, I swear, I'm drowning
I'm drowning in emotions
Drowning in my tears
Drowning in anxiety and drowning in my fears
And I don't wanna be here
Because I'm drowning
And I just can't explain
The feeling of the pain
And I can't really tell if
It is driving me insane
And if I can't do all that
What's the meaning of life and all
The strength that I gotta gain?
I feel lost, I am lost
And if that isn't the truth
Why am I not finding all the
Happiness that life should cost?
I can't lie, i spent my whole life wishin'
I could just die
And though I'm alive, I feel like I'm dead
Because of the misery that lives in my head
Because, because I'm drowning, I swear
I'm drowning i'm drowning in emotions
Drowning in my fears
Drowning in anxiety and drowning in my tears
And I don't wanna be here
Because I'm drowning, I swear, I'm drowning
Drowning in emotions, drowning in my tears
Drowning in anxiety and drowning in my fears
And I don't wanna be here
Ey, uh
Dear Jacob, I appreciate your email
I wanna be careful and consider every detail
It sounds like you're hurt
Don't let the pain stop you
You might consider hirin' a
Therapist to talk to
It hurts my heart to hear you
Say you wanna cut yourself
I promise, man, self-mutilation doesn't help
I know it feels like you wish
That you were someone else
But maybe you should take time
To embrace and hug yourself
Seriously, man, be nice to yourself
You're only 13, friend when I was 13
I remember wishing my life would end
But this ain't the end
You found the beginning
You're not frowning, you're grinning
And you're not drowning, you're swimming
I'll help you on the boat
As long as you promise me
That you'll never lose hope
You're only 13
Your whole life's in front of you
Change your attitude
And the world could change because of you
Love you, bro!