Madchild - Painful Skies lyrics

Look i know what I did
And I'm not sitting here blaming anyone else
I'm not feeling sorry for myself either

Yo i listen to this beat it makes me
Think of what I've been through
All of the mistakes and stupid
Shit that I got into
All the fuckin' fakeness of people
That I made friends with
So 98 percent of those friendships
I had to end it
I'm to old to be worried and keep pretending
And I apologize to some of
The people deeply offended
But, I can't live in the past
That shit just wears me down
That shit just tears me up inside
And fucking tears me down
I'm not the man I was then
But I am not running
And I am not yet the man
That I am still becoming
I'm getting stronger everyday and I
Can fucking feel it
And all the problems of my past
One day I'm gonna deal with
Thanks for your patience I
Apologize for each occurrence
And I just hope that you can
Take this as some reassurance
My life is good each day is
Better than the next day
But, I have not forgotten won't
Settle till every debts payed

Time changes each man ages
And sometimes best friends become strangers
Each life's a book with blank pages
Last ten years it's a
Chapter that's outrageous time changes
Every man ages
And sometimes best friends become strangers
Tears, anger and laughter we can't change it
Listen to your hearts we're
Protected by angels

Look let me make this clear I
Don't regret my whole past
Can't believe how time flies
Shit has gone by so fast
You let me in your secret world
And that was quite an honor
And I admit that that's a life
I thought I might have wanted
Probably of pursued If I
Hadn't gotten caught up
But flags they started raising with these
Kids all gettin' shot up
And I became addicted to a drug
That almost took my life
Lookin' back that might of been the
Only thing that saved my life
I'm full of love now
I'm Happy I don't harbor hatred

Pretty sure that's how God wants us
And to me that's sacred

I'm not sitting here judging and
Calling ya'll some vagrants
And I'm not pointing fingers
Questioning your occupations
I'm just hoping that the way I
Feel can shine some light
I know you got a good heart dawg
It's time to stop the fight
And let yourself become the man
That your supposed to be
I still believe in you no matter what
You're always close to me

Time changes each man ages
And sometimes best friends become strangers
Each life's a book with blank pages
Last ten years it's a
Chapter that's outrageous time changes
Every man ages
And sometimes best friends become strangers
Tears, anger and laughter we can't change it
Listen to your hearts we're
Protected by angels

And I know becoming friends
Again ain't possible, at least for years
And fucking up for me is still
A problem that I deeply fear
Only got a couple close friends now
That's how I like it
And I think I'm actually gonna make it
But I'm not a psychic
One of them's a brother proud to
Say that he's my best friend
Come on man! you got some fucking brothers
Let this shit end it's sad to me to see that
Greed is still The Devil's weapon
I tried my best to walk away
From shit and kept steppin'
Brothers doin' good
His heart is filled with love
And we gon keep on building with
These people that believe in us
Remember there was four of us
Till death do us part
Now there's only two of us
The rest grew apart
It doesn't mean I don't think about you too
Every week
And even if we never speak there's
Still a bond i'll never leave
I hope your happy and your
Family is doin' awesome
And hope that your still following the
Progress of the little monster
You had a hand and that
Helped and saved my life, i won't forget
Let's live the next half with no regrets
Cause it ain't over yet

Time changes each man ages
And sometimes best friends become strangers
Each life's a book with blank pages
Last ten years it's a
Chapter that's outrageous time changes
Every man ages
And sometimes best friends become strangers
Tears, anger and laughter we can't change it
Listen to your hearts we're
Protected by angels