Brandi Carlile, Marcus Mumford - How lyrics

I have wondered what was done to you
To give you such a taste of flesh
I guess for years I just carried on
Didn't feel much of a choice to suppress

I hope your memory is less vivid than mine
And it's free from that awful maple light
I have to say I still wish you
Had just done it in the dark
So the pictures didn't burn so bright

But I forgive you now
Release you from all of the blame I know how
And I forgive you now
As if saying the words will help me know how
Please help me know how

I'm afraid it will take a time
I make my case to the Shahanshah
As I bring him his cup
And I tell him the best I can what I need
To build the walls of my Jerusalem back up

And I have reckoned with what
You've taken from me
And I killed that liar in my head
I buried him beneath the maple tree
There's no joy in dancing with the dead

But I forgive you now
Release you from all of the blame I know how
And I forgive you know
As if saying the words will help me know how
How
How