Martina McBride - I'm Trying lyrics

She said I'm not pointing fingers
He said yes you are
Cause you wouldn't bring it up if you weren't
And if I'd told you I'd been walking
Out in the dark night thinking
Would you take as truth
This alcoholic's word?
Oh, I can't change, what's done is done
But, I can tell you this

Not a day goes by that
I don't curse myself and all my sins
And I need you to hold on to
While this part of me is dying
Though I haven't kicked the
Demons that haunt me i'm trying, I'm trying
She sat down on the floor and said
I wish that I was stronger
Right now I feel as fragile as glass
And I want to believe you
Believe what's held you has freed you
And I hate these doubts that
Keep on coming back
My parents think I'm crazy for
Hanging on this long

But there's nothing I want more for us
Than to prove to them they're wrong
And I don't want to be afraid
I don't wanna think you're lying
And though I haven't found the
Faith that I need i'm trying, I'm trying

He asks do you want me to leave?
Cause if you do you know I will
But she says, much to his disbelief
No, I love you still oh, I love you still

He said I don't know why I've been the fool
But, I can tell you this
Not a day goes by that
I don't curse myself and all my sins
Then he dropped down to his knees
By now they both were crying
He said, I haven't been the man I want to be
But, I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying
I'm trying