Mary Lambert - Knife lyrics

I remember the night we had to pull over
Because the moon was so rich and orange
And full of love
We stood holding hands in silence
Being welcomely swallowed by the open night
The smell of cucumbers
The last twilight of summer still
Warm on our cheeks

As I drive by tonight the road reminds me
The stars start whispering "Look up"
It knocked the wind out of me
It was just the way it happened
Farmhouses dotted with Christmas lights
The air too cold to breathe
Now a sad Christmas song on the radio
My chest caving in on it'self
I pulled over just to see

What it would feel like
Standing there alone
But the moon disappeared i'm not lying
Pulled from under my feet the moon
It was you
You were there and then you were not
And this isn't a dream
This is what dying feels like
What it means to knife and to be
Knifed by the one that you loved
And to keep driving home
Oh my love, what have I done?

I'm not bad just because you left me
Not good just because you loved me
Not bad just because you left me here

It was the fire that killed me
You never called me back
When is home gonna feel like home again?
Not just a place with the
Windows and doors again

I'm not bad just because you left me
Not good just because you loved me
Not bad just because you left me here