Meadows - The Depths lyrics

"What’s on your mind?"
Some nights I stay up, afraid of the backs
Of my eyes, afraid to see inside, my head
(What’s inside my head?)
Afraid to deal with the weight
That I held faint forgiveness in the air
But I’m convinced that they won’t care
(Feigned forgiveness in the air)
Within reach, but they won’t care
But there’s a hand still reaching out for me
To reach into my heart’s attempt
To see, to take off this blindfold covering
Me the anxiety, the depression, isolation
Obsession "Observe the story again tell it
From cover to cover"
(Cover to cover) my life’s a trial of
Missteps and errors (missteps and errors)
I turned my back on my family
And God’s house that we called
Home but I’m no longer
In control the bottle’s gripped
Tight around my throat
Don’t forget who you are
Get out of this hole that
You’ve dug yourself in
A goodbye and a letter
Hold on to hope of things, maybe
Getting better
Of all the dreams and terrors you've seen
Something always stands out
It's what life could have been
That thought of making it work, or have I
Have I just made it worse?
Can we mend what is broken
If I’m on the outside?
Get by with surface hello’s and goodbyes
(Hello goodbye) a look too deep and they
Might see what’s inside (What’s inside?)
Hold my heart in the way you first saw it
Of all the memories
The worst stay stuck on rewind
You lose yourself to the world
You’ve lost yourself to the world
I’ve lost myself to the world