Meek Mill - Traumatized lyrics

It really hurt me when they killed Shaddy
I was locked down in my cell and
I had to read about it
And when they killed Diddy
Left him out in Philly
We was young and gettin' money
Man we used to run the city
We was rockin' all them shows
Fuckin' all them hoes
And when they killed Darryl
Renee had to see him froze on the ground
Downtown, I can hear the sounds now
When she walked up to that casket
Seen her son and fell down
I drop tears for my niggas that ain't here
And still think about you even
Though that it been years
'Cause half the niggas that I grew
Up with is all dead
All this pain and all this stressin'
I should have a bald head
'Cause when my Aunt Rhonda died she
Looked Tak in his eyes saw death comin'
When she seen it she just cried
Prolly part of the reason we
Drink and we get high
When I find the nigga that killed
My daddy know I'ma ride
Hope you hear me, I'ma kill you nigga
To let you know that I don't feel you nigga
Yeah, you ripped my family apart
And made my momma cry
So when I see you nigga
It's gon' be a homicide
Cuz I was only a toddler
You left me traumatized
You made me man of the house
And it was grindin' time
So I'ma let this flame hit you just
To let this pain hit you
And for all them cloudy days I'ma
Let this rain hit you nigga

I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, i know
You ripped my family apart and
Made my momma cry so when I see you nigga
It's gon' be a homicide
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, i know
So I'ma let this flame hit you just
To let this pain hit you
And for all them cloudy days I'ma
Let this rain hit you nigga

And I ain't ready
Niggas wanna murder me I'm
Ridin' around heavy
I think they wanna wet me like
New Orleans and the levees
But I got this Mac-Elev-y
These niggas'll never get me
Lord knows, I got alotta homies in the dirt
Niggas sprayin' metal tryna take
You off the earth really over nothin'
Tell me what it's worth
Tryna take you out the game just
To put you on a shirt
I rose from the jungle like Derrick
Death to anybody that oppose my spirit
My future looking brighter than this
Rose I'm staring at
We be runnin' trains on
The hoes y'all cherish
Rest in peace to my niggas
I swear I miss them to death
My hammer sing murda music
I'll let you listen to death
I'll have you walk with the reaper
When hollows rip through your chest
'Cause if you throw 'em I throw
Back like Mitchell & Ness i'm gone

I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, i know
You ripped my family apart and
Made my momma cry so when I see you nigga
It's gon' be a homicide
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, i know
So I'ma let this flame hit you just
To let this pain hit you
And for all them cloudy days I'ma
Let this rain hit you nigga

Man my life so real
Last night I went to sleep and
Woke up with the chills
Started with a dollar now I got a couple mil
And I make a hundred thousand
Every time a nigga spill
Man I almost got murked in
Front of the same church
My dad got carried in, family got married in
That was in my older days, this is now
That was then
Had the block jumpin' for them dollars
Shawn Marion young nigga gon' get my own
That's why I'm arrogant
Homie need the bail
For them bonds we'll bury 'em
Lock 'em like a terrier
Breakin' all barriers
Just to beat the trial we
Go miles like Darius
'Cause cops tryna catch me
Niggas tryna clap me haters runnin at me
Know they wanna get at me
And people got the nerve to ask
Why I don't look happy
I did it for my niggas
And I did this shit for Kathy

I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, i know
You ripped my family apart and
Made my momma cry so when I see you nigga
It's gon' be a homicide
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, i know
So I'ma let this flame hit you just
To let this pain hit you
And for all them cloudy days I'ma
Let this rain hit you nigga