Mega Ran, Noveliss - Imposter Syndrome lyrics

I know who I am but
Sometimes I’m not really sure
On one hand I do the most yet
I wish that could do more
I ain’t where I was before
I ain’t where I wanna be
I wish I could be the person that
You see when you see me

I used to draw
Truthfully I was kinda nice at it
I would make transformers and
Anime characters and
Run my momma ragged like
I need a sketchbook, strathmore
With 100 sheets colored pencils
I made a stunning peace at
Least every couple weeks
But, I kept it secret
Cause my homie Al used to draw too
6’7, living legend never had a lesson
Plus he could ball too
I felt inferior- so my pad
Never left my interior work my posterior off
But knew deep inside
That my skill, it would never
Get near to him, so one day I got exposed
I took my drawings to school
I thought I would look like a fool
But everyone said they were cool
It Felt great having an audience
But that didn’t help me through all of it
You can have everyone all convinced
And yet still feel fraudulent
That Imposter syndrome

And When you got my skin tone
Depression make it's inroads-
North of 30 and it hit's home
I’m an unfinished work and I know
That to be true spit
I make movements not excuses
Everydays a chance for improvement, yeah
I know who I am but
Sometimes I’m not really sure
On one hand I do the most yet
I wish that could do more
I ain’t where I was before
I ain’t where I wanna be
I wish I could be the person that
You see when you see me

A remix of human being
Who Dreamed of doing too many things
But why not? I figured I'd to do them
All unless time stops
I grew up in the gym and the driveway
A scholarship was light work
But started to lose interest when I
Figured out how my mind worked
Didn't to try to share my taste
In anime with my teammates
Then Starting writing poetry ask around
They'd never know it's me
The Imposter syndrome
An otaku lost in the locker room
Nobody sat next to me on the busses
My solitude
Every road game in college was writing rhymes
My solace i've seen the world
But my hunger for more
Remains out of balance

I be pleading with myself to act natural
When I get off the stages
But instead I curl up and
Get flustered too many faces
You'd never know
A product of growing up finding
Comfort in being alone
But what I apply to my craft from sports
Is knowing how to be in the zone
Cursed by my perception inception
I swear it felt like a good year
Depression in the physical's a smile
From ear to ear but never veer still here