Menomena - Copious lyrics

On one hand I can count the times we've had
Where I've been truly satisfied
The other hand is tied behind my back
Bound by years of wounded pride
And now I'm pinned down underneath your thumb
Pushing up with all my might
In spite of all the things
You've said and done
I'm still standing by your side
And I don't know why

I see your breath each time you call my name
But, it's the middle of July
And after all the things you've said and done
I feel somewhat justified
There're things in life a
Man just can't resist
And I'm not one to be denied
I won't be denied

I want my broken spirit whole
So I won't crumble on my own
I want a halo instead of horns
So I might be lead back in through the door

When I finally open my eyes I found out
I can't turn around now
So I keep marching on
But, I won't get far when I'm knee deep
Sinking in this shit heap
Trapped inside this bird cage
Waiting for my food change
Under lock and key till I resist
And you push back all hell breaks loose
I have to

Scream at the top of my lungs
Just to cauterize the wrecks
And the wraith-spewing core
In a tidal wave of less ran away out to get

I know you are the one
Who loved me all along because I am the one
Who broke you down all along
I broke you down all along
I broke you down all along
I broke you down all along i broke you down

And I

I want my broken spirit whole
So I won't crumble on my own
I want a halo instead of horns
So I might be lead back in through the door