Midwxst - Identity lyrics

I struggle with myself and my identity
The drugs seem to help, they my amenity
I said I needed help
You were not there for me
You said you were my friend
But you're an enemy
I struggle with myself and my identity
The drugs seem to help, they my amenity
I said I needed help
You were not there for me
You said you were my friend
But you're an enemy

I hide my feelings
Don’t want hurt anyone close
I don’t wanna bring you into my mess
So it's better you don’t know
I know that I might’ve have messed
Up but everybody fucks up
Open up my wound even though I
Know it's a deep cut
Holding this shit in but I
Know enough is enough
Never wanna talk about it
Never wanna discuss fall into this mindset
I can’t shake it I can’t leave
Don’t let anyone into my life
I think it's bad for me
Keep my thoughts inside my head
Don’t wanna fuck up, make a scene
I don’t trust a lot of people
Because I always get deceived
Sick and tired, I don’t wanna be the nice guy
You hurt me bad so now you’re
Gonna pay a high price
I shoulda seen it coming
Coming in my hindsight
I’m losing track of the time
Look at how time flies
Always seem to forget
I always seem to regret
Cutting everyone off
Don’t wanna talk wanna connect
Lipstick on my neck, I miss it now I regret
Cigarettes on my lips
Smell chemicals on my breath

Telling tales of fantasy
Slowly fall into catastrophe
I slowly burn in agony
My tears will fall stain on my tee
You got me in your trance and
I can’t seem to shake it
No one ever wants to listen
Keep my mouth closed, i won’t say shit

I struggle with myself and my identity
The drugs seem to help, they my amenity
I said I needed help
You were not there for me
You said you were my friend
But you're an enemy
I struggle with myself and my identity
The drugs seem to help, they my amenity
I said I needed help
You were not there for me
You said you were my friend
But you're an enemy

Tell but no one knows
Feel this way, don’t show
Hold your words, don’t choke
Keep it in control tell but no one knows
Feel this way, don’t show
Hold your words, don’t choke
Keep it in control tell but no one knows
Feel this way, don’t show
Hold your words, don’t choke
Keep it in control tell but no one knows
Feel this way, don’t show
Hold your words, don’t choke
Keep it in control

Scars on my body but I
Think they are a keepsake
Tryna be nice to everybody
Everyone wanna be fake
Thankful for my friends and my family
Know I appreciate
Know that I need help 'cause I
Been trapped inside this bad place
Depression coming in and don’t
Know if it’ll stop
Self confidence, it comes up and it drops
Don’t know if it's worth, it's worth the talk
I don’t wanna drag you into this at all