Modern Baseball - Beholder lyrics

Oh I'll say anything if it means saving this
Even though I was told and
Mentioned I will surely miss
So I heard a few will make it all go away
Biting my lips just to feel none
Know nothing of this pain

Thoughts while overthinking
I'll just try to sleep them away
Good luck staying sane in this hellish place

And this is where i'll
This where i'll leave it all behind
Make some room for this troubled kid
Searching for lasting lies
Well I heard there's one that all of us send
I love that I keep discovering mine
Especially since there's a 90% chance
Of boring out there outside

Ill jump out this window just
To be caught by arms
Hoping they can hold the
Imagination that comes along
Yet still I'm broken because of two and
Only left with me and I
Let me continue by saying that I
I care too much for this life
Oh I pity the fool who was
Found guilty of stealing my heart
Don't move a muscle cause I
Heard anger is on, on the watch

Now I'm not saying I regret anything
But I sure as hell would change some times
Busted lip and bloody fists
Oh shake it off son don't you cry

Molded by other lines and created
By the space between
Scream at the top of my lungs
Let it echo (echo) through the trees
Cringe at the thought of other hims
But proposing the thought of other hers
I hope this burning desire
I hope it catches up with me
And seeing how beauty is in
The eye of the beholder
I guess I'm out of luck
I find it hard to believe
That I can't hate anything

Oh larger the heart, bigger the fool
Dare I say I'm falling for who
Left me without speaking to be like them
(to fuck him)

Oh with soft skin and softer eyes
Wish I was kissing shoulders to say goodnight
Cause to be honest I would rather end up with

And if it sounds like I'm begging
It's cause I'm begging for the truth
And if it sounds like I'm running
It's cause I want nothing to do
With what was said about me
When I was trying to my soul

Oh say what?

And truth be told I'm not
Done thinking about this
I must have missed the memo titled
"How to get past the I still want you step"
And with all these words in my head
I wish that they could reach my lips
Cause after seeing last night
I just went home and cried
Seeing what I miss all this time and I
I don't want to lose sight
Of what I had in mind
But I'll give it all up just for this

And though I base my life around
The idea that I'm seeing
More than what I'm seeing
I'll change my ways i'll simplify for this

And I felt the breeze as it
Walked out of my life but it seems like some
Some wanna stay here this time
Oh I'll give my heart
My dilapidated soul for this

And I i don't have to think twice
About who I can trust with
With what I have to give

And I believe what I've been
Told my whole life about who I am
And about what I can do for this life
But I guess overlooked some
I overlooked some of it

In my eyes I somehow miss that
Beauty's in the eye of the beholder
I guess I'm in love
Beholder, beholder being you

And If it kills me
If kills me to sink and feel
I guess I'll die trying for this
And this broken idea of love in my head
Is not felt within

And I will lie awake tonight thinking of this
(Beauty's in the eye of the beholder
I guess I'm in love)
And I will lie awake tonight thinking of this
(Beholder, beholder being you)

And I will lie awake tonight thinking of this
(Beauty's in the eye of the beholder
I guess I'm in love)
And I will lie awake tonight thinking of this
(Beholder, beholder being you)

And I will lie awake tonight thinking of this
(Beauty's in the eye of the beholder
I guess I'm in love)
And I will lie awake tonight thinking of this
(Beholder, beholder being you)

And I will lie awake tonight thinking of this
(Beauty's in the eye of the beholder
I guess I'm in love)
And I will lie awake tonight thinking of this
(Beholder, beholder being you)

Well here it is the big one, the big finish
The way that you move me
Well it simply makes me cringe
And I when I lay awake tonight
I'll think about of this
Oh I'll think of you oh I'll think of you