Modern Baseball - Hope lyrics

I speak soft hoping you'll hear me
Not too busy searching for
Your head and heart
I sing loud, but only in the beginning
Just to grab your attention
Will you bare witness to these words that
Have been so hard to find?
Look at me when I say I'm not
Just another one of your fucking push-away's
In your life, all you've seen
So sick and tired of all those movie scenes
I'll let you in, I'll pour you out
Let's build you straight up
Turn you around and spit you out i am hope
Look at me when I say
I'm broken and disheveled
Yet still working a double on your heart
And in your head not to be confused with the
Lines about losing them
Oh, I'm speaking truthfully
I've spent so many sleepless
Nights just wondering
'Will I ever be able to be your hope?'
Your hope

Shattered heart but you're
Calling it open-minded
Dare I say you're the one
Who makes me realize

Our nights are not labeled as life
Can we call them living?
I found these present-findings to be directly
Connected to your secret carings

Oh, I've been speaking truthfully
I've spent so many sleepless
Nights just wondering
'Will I ever be able to be your hope?'
Your hope

I sing strong will you just notice me?
Spewing these lines out
Leaving my thoughts so dry
Just you know you're slowly brewing
A collection of moments
My tangle of words should explain
My lack-luster last line