Mount Eerie - Forest Fire lyrics

The year moves on without you in it
Now it is fall without you
I had to close the windows and
Doors without you coming through
I kept them open for as long as I could
But the baby got cold
I watched the calendar bulldoze

This whole past summer was
A lingering heatwave
And I remember late August
Our open bedroom window
Going through your things with
The fan blowing
And the sound of helicopters
And the smell of smoke
From the forest fire that was growing
Billowing just on the edge of town
Where we used to swim
They say a natural, cleansing devastation
Burning in the understory, erasing trails
There is no end but when I'm kneeling in the
Heat throwing out your underwear
The devastation is not natural or good
You do belong here
I reject nature, I disagree

In the hazy light of forest fire smoke
I looked across at the refineries and thought
That the world was actually constantly ending
And the smell and roar of the asphalt truck
That was idling just out the window
Tearing up our street
I missed you, of course
And I remember thinking the last time it
Rained here you were alive still
And that this same long heat that
I was in contained you
And in this same heat
I opened the window next to
You on your last morning
So you could breathe
And then so you could ghost away
And now so the room
Will hopefully stop whispering

The grind of time I'm not keeping up with
The leaf on the ground pokes
At my slumbering grief
Walking around, severed, lumbering
But slowly, sovereignty reasserts it'self
I don't want it though, and betrayal whines
Who and how could Ilive?