Mount Eerie - Great Ghosts lyrics

I had my hopes of how I would be
After living in exile
After closing your eyes to me

I even wrote scenes where I reemerged boldly
Bearded, alive, with eskimo eyes
New baby on my back, but from where?

But, I didn't count the fact that
I have ghosts in my mind
Stowaways, great ghosts of my life
Great ghosts of old wives
And they're howling!
So I spent my wilderness time
Rolling on the ground
Pulling my hair, and wrestling them off
Yelling at no one, punching snow

I gathered ghosts and gave them my lecture
I bid them away, I pleaded and cried, I said
"There's no room in my life for you or you
Or your howling!"

Let me undo these ropes and
Go on living without you
Not just change where we live
"Go on, get" I said

I had my hopes about how I
Would be after sending them off
After getting set free
But there's no such thing as
Living without their prowling

As you can see, having descended the hill
I still look like me
I still wallow like Phil and forever will

I'm teaming with ghosts and I'm
Still whining for wives knitting my brow
But now I've surrendered
In fact, I have joined in hear us howling!