Mr. Lif - The Now lyrics

Daddy's got a new life now
A new daughter and a new male child
A new swagger with some real style
New car, new house, brand-new spouse
Little shitty dog named Klaus
New smile on his mouth
Wouldn't say that we're forgotten
'cause we developed a plan once a month
He takes the time to hang with his old fam
Half a day to let you know
He still cares and such
You won't grow apart too much
From being out of touch
But he wasn't there for him
On the daily, yeah, the basis
In order to drop jewels like
"Stay clear of the racists"
Heavy promises became weightless
Sincerity became fakeness
He's praying for his heart to ache less
Time is passing by


Yet his scars remain ageless
He called him on the phone to say, pops
This'll take just a minute of your time
But his wishes were declined
By the disenchanted tone at the
End of the line
Hang up, try to look strong in front of mom
Back up, John
Stop looking forward to the day
You're gonna see him on
Now you're eye to eye and
You receive an embrace
From a lost heart that's pumping blood
Up to a guilty face
He's gonna try to find ways to make
Up for the last twenty-nine days
Or was it thirty? I think he heard me
In situations like this
His speech becomes wordy
He's got a hundred million ways to
Tell me not to worry but this time
I wasn't hanging on his every sentence
Ears crippled by the pain of
Negligence or was it vengeance?
He spoke, I couldn't hear a word, I zoned
It looked like I observed
My only thoughts were missing out
On love that I deserved
Trying to convince myself I'm
Weak within the mental but silence breaks
Because a father's guidance is essential
He's lookin' down with a smile
Saying, in the future, we'll be great pals
Yeah, dad, but what about the now?
Johnny, come and leave ya dad alone now
Yeah, it's just you and momma now
Stop the crying now just try to smile now
Try to think of other things now
Momma's got another date now
You can get through all the
Anger and the hate now
Calm down and wipe your face now
I know it seems to be hard but I promise you
We'll make it through somehow

"And now"

Little girl, their firstborn, their sunshine
Never gonna lead her wrong
Get it right one time here's how it goes
She's off to school then dancing on her toes
At an hour-long ballet class
Then on to the piano two hours of repetition
Emulating classic music compositions
Do your homework with precision
By nine o'clock
She collapses in a heap of dizziness
But sleep so tomorrow you'll
Repeat your busyness
She got straight A's and spoke of her stress
But her Maydays were drowned
Out by the melees of mom and dad trying to
Blame each other different ways
She'd stop and gaze
Thinkin' how it drives her crazy
When their voices raise
This dilemma ruins most of her days
From her, perfection was expected
And it's hectic working hard
Without receiving any praise
At night, she cries where she lays
Then she wakes up, washes up
Smiles and goes along like it's okay
On to high school
There's more intensity within her cycle
She's making all the guys drool
Here come the extra tight rules
No mates, not with college on the plate
Practice hard, study hard, steady focus
Keep your head straight
Now she's a nervous wreck, looking to collect
Anything that she can smoke, swallow
Drink or inject when she was mentally gone
She went to the prom
Had dates and actually could sit down
Discuss relationships with her mom
But tell me how much pressure
Can a person take?
Before they break and maybe drugs just
Aren't a large enough escape?
So one night she turned in but stayed up late
At her desk with a single piece
Of paper and a Paper Mate
Here's mama for the routine wake at daybreak
What she saw made her knees shake
The death of dear Kate the note said
"Here's the future of your
Fuckin' perfect child
Please be proud, I'm living for the now"
Do your work, clean your room now
Take the makeup off your face now
Eat your dinner now get off the phone now
Leave the boys alone now
Saturday night, you staying home now
Go to your room and sit alone now
Katie, with the needle, how?
Look, baby, momma needs you now breathe now
God, why did this have to be now?