Nathanael Hoyt - Complex lyrics

I've been through so many tragedies
I'm so complex so they laugh and stare at me
The anger and the pain never goes away
My thoughts pester me like flies
When the plants decay

Isolate myself in so many various ways
I never go outside so I like to stay at home
In my room crying on the floor of my bathroom
No one understands me so why
You tryna read my writing
It won't help come find me
Cause I'm still fighting even
When I have anxiety
Things arе never quieting
Voicеs are always lost yelling rapidly
Stupid and mad always laughing at me
It's not okay
I'm all that I have cause in a dark room
I can't enjoy the mass
Cause I can't consume
Swallow all the pain everything
I've gone through
I can't coincidence cause

You can rip and tear my skin to shreds
I'm wondering why I'm still
Alive and not dead
You can step and break my heart again but
Nothing lasts forever we all fall apart
Remind me of my wrong ways
My life was never gone long anyways
I never had any better days
We all know that's the deal
When the truth starts to reveal
To get it over I guess

Because I'm Complex nonetheless nonetheless

Undergo the loss i gave it all I lost
But that's the cost i guess
I sat there like a toy on a shelf
Hoping that someone would see out of
My eyes instead of their self
My love, it died my peace, denied
I laughed, I cried i saddened my life

To think I never tried
But it was them who lied
Them I blame I never lost the game
I've been through all stages of Grief
But now it's time for a little mischief
Screw you and screw you
You'll never hurt the way you know that I do
I will make you pay for all the stupid shit
You know I went through

You can rip and tear my heart to shreds
I'm still wondering why I'm alive
And not dead I'm wondering
You can stop and break my heart again but
Nothing lasts forever we all fall apart
Remind me of my wrong ways
My life here was never long anyways
I never had any better days
But we all know that's the deal
When the truth starts to reveal
You can try your best to think it's not real
To get it over I guess because I'm Complex
Nonetheless, Nonetheless, Nonetheless
I'm complex nonetheless, Nonetheless
I'm complex

You'll never get it i guess