NOFX - The Death Of John Smith lyrics

I've got respect from the community
I've got my bridge game to look forward to
I've got this chance, a golden opportunity
As long as I keep doing what I'm supposed to

You see my wife and kids, they depend on me
To provide them with nothing but the best
I feel it's my duty, my obligation
To live up to the standards society suggests

I'll keep on working for their benefit
And I'll keep on drinking
I'll keep on believing in
I'll keep on believing in my life

Another year of slaving and smiling
Buying and trading
Living the life of a wealthy man
But somehow I don't feel so rich inside
That doesn't make sense
I just had this little vacation
As soon as I get this
Operation taken care of
I'll start enjoying the good things in life

When the pity spins your mind
Darkness fills your heart
And I won't be around
When you're feeling all alone
Then you'll know it's time
To go into the ground
When the pity spins your mind
Darkness fills your heart
And I won't be around

I've got my family, friends, and associates
To stand by me as the threshold comes near
Within their faces, I see grave concern
I ask myself if their thoughts are sincere

After all these years of being complacent
What do I get?
Tenderness, affection, a true sense of love?
Just pain through a body chock-full of regret

I'll keep on believing my
Life still has value
And I'll keep on laughing
Why can't I stop laughing?
I can't stop the laughing