Okkervil River - Call Yourself Renee lyrics

Don't look back until you realize you're
Pointedly not trying to look back
And then reconsider, try for a clearer mind
Try for a grace of some kind
Leave your house and walk into autumn light
Imagine a river
Massive and galloping beneath your feet
Or you can call yourself Renee again and
You can move back to Rapid City

You live in a hotel, you
Wait for a phone call, you wait for an email
You look out the window at a tree
Weighted down with snow
You worry about your mother, you
Watch a couple movies, you take an Ativan
You walk down a Rapid City street alone
And at night there's a pink cast
Underneath a blank grey cloudhead
Well that's something pretty to look
At in the sky and I don't know why
So-And-So's taking much time
To breathe something new into my life

And there's a tip tap on the window that
Could be fate's pale face looking in
Energy could be in the trembling
Hands of a tree, or it could be light
Or it could be nothing at all

Out in the night
The world was right against our skin
And it was right again out in the night
The world was right against our skin
And it was right, baby

Mysteriously absent for the
Afternoon and suddenly
Missing for a full month
His mother called up, called
Around the corner
Called out shooting from a dream
Called his father five states to the south
Said he was gone
When he could have easily been seen
In a Vero Beach Dillard's
Weaving in and out of the racks
Of beautiful blue men's shirts
Or in South Florida, breezing
Through the drive-through
Easy like a song on the stereo
Letting it all slide like an easy-going guy
Or he could have not existed
Just a vision of his mother
When she wished it so hard into
Something she could almost see
Or he could have been a feeling in the air
Or the guy who cuts your hair
He could have been anyone
He could even have been me

And me
I don't care if I come back as a single wave
Or an oriole, or a spare branch on a tree
Cause I'm not scared to die as long as I know
That the universe has something really
To do with me

Out in the night
The world was right against our skin
And it was right out in the night
The world was right against our skin
And it was right, baby

I wanna make it nice again
I wanna make it alright
I wanna make it nice again
I wanna make it alright

Out in the night
The world was right against our skin
And it was alright, child out in the night
The world was right against our skin
And it was alright, baby

I wanna make it nice again
I wanna make it alright