Okkervil River - Kathy Keller lyrics

Kathy Keller's only daughter
I've been bad, but I'm getting better
I seen you dancing with another man
And he was holding your hand
But all dances must rest
Nothing lasts forever

Cynthia Anne, so give me chances
I will prove to you that romance is
Something that doesn't have to make you
Feel sick after, feel all cheated
Over and over remember what he did
I did all that, but now I'm really better

I would like to prove to you
I have no appetite to do
The things I did then and won't do again

On my own, I'm all alone
I try to make my affections known
They would not stop talking
About what I did twenty years ago

That bright kitchen, that old cleaver
The spots of blood, the fallen phone receiver
Don't you get tired of seeing those pictures?
That was me, but now I'm different
I did all that, but now I'm really better

I would like to prove to you
I have no appetite to do
The things I did then and won't do again
On my own, I'm all alone
I try to make my affections known
But the evil's passed
From one hand to another

Cynthia Keller in the cellar
Don't tell me you didn't get my letters
I try to tell you, make you see
That after all they did to me
How I could I do that? All I can do now
Is stay at home and watch TV
You're all I have, don't make me go

Don't throw me away, don't leave me alone
I can't be alone now that I'm all better
I can't be alone now that I'm all better
I'm your slave, just
Don't leave me alone with my being better
Just don't leave me alone
With my being better ahh