Oliver Walker - Not Going Back lyrics

This neighbourhood is scary
Like the conjuring
They see me outside of the party
And say don't let him in it’s cool though
I'm used to always being last
And like Andre, I'm the bigger OutKast
Today I’ll be here but tomorrow
I'll be gone again
Ever since I drop my first
Tape they keep hollering
Asking for a feature or a studio session
But you're not my real friend
If you just keep begging look
I shot my shot
Now they hear me all on soundcloud
Now they laugh when they see
Me walking through the town
This ain't a town no more, this a graveyard
Nobody got a brain herе, that's too far
My dick's hard, gave me head
That's a hеad stone
Snuck a phone into jail, that's a cell phone
If you want
We can fuck while your man’s gone
Nothing serious
I keep her in the friend zone

I’m not going back
That place is not for me no
Chillest motherfucker in the game like Smino
I'm tryna live a good ass life like Leo’s
These bitches at club come
In threes like Trios
Buying all these clothes second hand
No shame can my friends read my face
Can they tell that I'm in pain
I really hope they can cause
I never wanna say
All of the shit that is stuck in my brain
All I wanna do is be for me a second
Write for a living and have a few children
I really I hope I do but
The way that I'm feeling
Got me having dreams where I'm
Not the same person
Losing every part of me with
Every bill I’m earning
Tryna keep my head on with
All the shit I'm learning
Even when you're gone all
These thoughts keep turning
I hate to see the sun so
I've closed all my curtains
Tryna speak to god but I
Don't know if he's real
I just wanna live, but you just wanna kill
I just Tryna win, but you wanna see my fail
My mind is now a prison
I'm never paying bail
I could do it all but I don't
I stay inside my house, in my home
Call me if you need but you won't
Blame it on me, I'm a joke
Sometimes I wish I wasn't here
Number one, lame kid of the year
Going parties and I'm sipping on a ‘Wieser
Used to be dumb but I'm wiser
I just wanna win, gold medal, the olympics
Rapping ain't sport but it feels just like it
If you ain't got the brains
Or the heart keep talking
And if you ain't patient like us keep walking
But I'm waiting for some better days
Watch the clouds fade away, feel the sun rays
But I forgot that we're here in the UK
And the rain comes back on the next day
Can you stay with me? Until the night comes?
We fuck in the night, call the night cum
I know you evil with a mask like Jason
I know you trying to Get passion

Wake up Oli you are going on
Grab the mic, read the lyrics to a few songs
I walk out and I see the whole world
From the dads
And the moms and the boys and the girls
And the pearls that I bought
My bitch last year
And all she gave me were a few tears
Hold onto my pillow like she's still here
Whenever you're gone, I can't see clear
You turned me to a monster
And I never changed back
You made me so depressed
You can never change that
I blame it on you when I know it's on me
Tell me who to call when I'm
Out there in the scene, huh?
Who gone be there? Man I'm too scared
I see a guy I don't know and I feel fear
I know it's dumb but I do, and I still care
And I still care