Packy - Defining Moment lyrics

They want me to say it all
I've been waiting for the moment yeah

I ain't slept in months
Got a lot that's on my mind
'Bout to take the ride of my life
A lot up on the line
Life got it's moments, some of 'em define you
Like losing the love of your life
To try to find you
Numb to it now, can't feel a damn thing
Far from reality, closer to my damn dream
Far from family, closer to my damn team
More and more
It feel like the same damn thing
And so I ride for my
Brothers 'til the wheels fall
I told 'em we'd be stackin'
Paper 'til it's real tall
People whinin' 'bout the hands
That I deal y'all go and get it on your own
I don't really feel y'all
This shit is cutthroat
I ain't never been the type
But, if you carry dead weight
It's hard to get your money right
And so I'm on a diet, I've been cuttin' back
I was givin' everything and gettin' nothing
Back and I'm through with it
I still remember sittin' in the car
You would get emotional
I never felt so far removed
From the feeling of having to make it better
My mind is all in the future
I left my heart in a letter
I'm cold now Cold now
Everything we had is old now
Least that's what I tell myself
It helps me on the road now
We used to talk about everything
Now I feel like when we talk again
Someone will have you in a wedding ring
It's like my best moves hurt
The ones close to me
They be asking when the hell did
Money mean the most to me?
Since I got a taste and
I left the comfort zone
Now it's either money or blowin'
Up everything we've grown
This rap shit feels like
Everything I've ever known
Locked up in the studio
Never picking up my phone
It's always some bullshit
I just need to be alone
I don't want no distraction
I been in my zone
Word is we getting love in the city
Funny, I feel it's like all
I wanted from the beginning
And now I'm too far away, figures though
It's always been motivation for me
To get bigger though
Friends were ashamed of my little hobby
Until the women they wanted
Were digging my music and now they
All be thinking it's chronic
Pardon my trouble
Was separating real from the fake
Everyone gassin' me up
I just be needing a break
I just tell it like it is
And they be feeling a way
They say I'm trippin'
I say I'm finally feelin' awake
Too much at stake, I ain't playing no games
People guessin' the suspects
I ain't saying no names it's family biz
You suckers don't know what
Family is Family is i promise I see it clear
Told the team we on the verge
Guess that we'll see this year
My fear is I'll get everything I
Wanted and nothin' I need