Paula Cole - El Greco lyrics

I'm black on blacker velvet
Milk skin and veins
Like some El Greco painting so full of pain
So full of longing for light of day
I thought I knew who I was in the world
But here I am twice blind at being born
Crawling to my buried voice, within
And I've forgotten who I used to be
And I've forgotten the woman in red
Living her dream
And I've forgotten the courage I used to be
Happiness is overrated it never lasts
Skating the surface of oceanic depths
Oh may the fruit of my life be meaning
So please, forgive me all my seriousness
My so-called spirituality i'm just a mess

I'm tears and anxiety
But, I'm unafraid to See
And I've forgotten who I used to be
The leader in her glory shining, divining
And I've forgotten, the courage I used to be
The middle passage is so damned humbling
Persona crumbling
I don't know, I don't know, I
Don't know, I don't know, i don't know
And I try, and I try, and I try, and I try
And I try i don't know, I don't know, I
Don't know, I don't know, i don't know
And I try, and I try, and I try, and I try
And I try like some El Greco painting
No sun or sky
No lantern, no candle needed to light
The holy radiance behind the eyes
And I've forgotten who I used to be
And I've forgotten the woman in red
Living her dream
And I've forgotten the courage I used to be
I don't know