Plan B - Rain Drops lyrics

I'm surrounded by the rain drops
Rollin out my eyes
This crazy life of mine is
Such a roller coaster ride
I'm hardly ever sober so forgive
Me if I'm high i'm one with the clouds in
The middle of the sky

My life is so pathetic
With decisions I've regretted
I'm hardly ever sober coz the
Drugs help me forget it
I don't know which way I'm headed
Complications from my past
My child's all I have and
It feels it's fading fast
I don't want to see em sad
So mostly I've been hopeless
The doctor don't help me
All he does is up the dosage
From time to time I notice
Every second I lose focus
She sweared to god she loved me
But I never smelled the roses
Baby if it's over then it's over
Let's end it
It's hard to be authentic when your
Hearts no longer in it
I know I'm so persistent and
Pushing you to the limit baby girl admit it
It's my fault your acting timid
I'm just a gimmick and you
Can tell by my condition
I should have put you first
But instead it's my addiction
I'm forever unforgiven and I'm barely livin'
Forgive me for my sins in
These sentences I'm sendin'
I'm starting to sense an ending so
I gotta keep my guard up partially confused
I'm suffering from hard luck
I feel that if I loose I
May never see the sun rise
I die every day and I don't
Get to see my child's eyes
It's crazy ain't it how the clouds
Cleared and it's still raining
Gotta face my fears before I
Fuck around and fall women that I've dated
I'm missing em here lately
Reminiscing about that lady that kissed
Me and made me crazy i want her
(I want her) but I'm with you (I'm with you)
I want her and to tell
The truth I'm falling down
When ain't no one around me
Rain drops all around me
In alcohol I'm drowning, days
Of depression, rage, and plenty stress
Since I was an adolescent I
Been broken down in health
Often I get selfish putting the pills first
Got a feeling that baby might not
Be mine and it still hurts
I cry late at night when I'm all alone
You can see the light
Shining but nobody's home
Where did I go wrong, I won't ever know
So I'm riding all alone by
Myself screaming let me go
If you would have stayed by my side
Maybe things wouldn't be this way
Every night she see my tail
Lights in the window pane
I'm always on the road
I get you high and keep you low
We might have made it but we'll never know
We gave up on our love and all the romance
I could have lit the candle
Should've held your hand
I would've held you down but you broke me off
Now you don't want me around
And I'm forever scared

I'm surrounded by the rain drops
Rollin out my eyes
This crazy life of mine is
Such a roller coaster ride
I'm hardly ever sober so forgive
Me if I'm high i'm one with the clouds in
The middle of the sky