Porcupine Tree - Chimera's Wreck lyrics

A coat of arms is all we are
The slow decay, dying star
A sinkhole for the crawling of the hours

Afraid to be
(afraid to be) what I should
Be (what I should be)
The sum of all
(the sum of all)
Of new and old (of new and old)
Experience has made me none the wiser

I'm afraid to be happy and I
Couldn't care less if I was to die
I'm afraid to be happy and I
Couldn't care less if I was to die, oh
(Do, dododooo, dodododododooo, doooo)

Chimera's wreck around my neck
To start again, to dream again
To fix the things that cursed
Me from the start

My father smiles
(my father smiles) ; me, the child (me
The child)
Getting tired
(getting tired) , losing drive (losing drive)
The clarity that age has brought to me

[?] for tomorrow
Even when the rain comes
We can still find a future in tomorrow

I'm afraid to be happy and I
Couldn't care less if I was to die
I'm afraid to be happy and I
Couldn't care less if I was to die
Oh

I'm afraid to be happy and I
Couldn't care less if I was to die
I'm afraid to be happy and I
Couldn't care less if I was to die, whoa

(Do, dododooo, dodododododooo
Dododooo do doo)
(Do, dododooo, dodododododooo
Dododooo do doo)
(Do, dododooo, dodododododooo
Dododooo do doo)
(Do, dododooo, dodododododooo
Dododooo do doo)

Here's the things I did with my kids
Here's the way I loved and I kneeled
Here's the things I did with my kids
Here's the way I loved and I kneeled

I'm afraid to be happy and I
Couldn't care less if I was to die
I'm afraid to be happy and I
Couldn't care less if I was to die, whoa
I'm afraid to be happy and I
Couldn't care less if I was to die

Wash up on the shore
Don't need you no more
Chimera wreck will slip into the bottle wreck
Wash up on the shore
Don't need you no more
Chimera wreck will slip into the bottle wreck
Wash up on the shore
Don't need you no more
Chimera wreck will slip into the bottle wreck