Pouya - The First Step Of Becoming God Is A Bottle To The Face lyrics

Why do I do the things I do to myself?
The pressure on my soul is damaging by health
I know these rappers coming for my belt
Cutthroat 'cause you can't fit too
Much on that top shelf
So everybody wanna bump heads
Money come rolling in
Relationships get questioned
Do you even know your friends?
Baby mama, hold my hand
Tell me that it's gonna end
Look up, tell me God is great, then, baby
Why the sky so grey?
Lay my head in your lap
As you caress my shoulder
We get high, then we doze off
Wake me up when it's over
I'm getting older
Don't think I've come to terms yet
Still searching for my purpose
Wondering if it's worth it
You study one book your entire life
And still end up a crook
I'm rolling dice, I come alive at night
I never thought to
Look the other way as my demons call my name
You know what they say, who am I to blame?

They say to think, sleep, and breathe deeper
Is the only way to avoid
Meeting the Grim Reaper
Praying on my knees until
I crease my sneakers
Can anybody out there hear me
Should I speak up?
I'm pacing back and forth like it's a
Sport with sweat dripping down my face
The weight of the world is on my
Chest and I just wanna walk away
I've been betrayed, swayed and played
Face-to-face
By the ones who say they love me the most but
Now I know that blood was
Never thick as water
See my friends die slowly in front of my eyes
See the pain and agony through
Every smile that I encounter
Back of the tour bus with
Blue pills, dollar bills
And dancers
Back at home, second hand
Struggling with cancer
Almost felt like it was me
How could I be so selfish?
Thinking about myself but not the one
That I'm in love with
Damn, my heart felt like erupting
Barely shedding tears
I had to emphasize my toughness