Powfu, Rxseboy - ​when the hospital was my home lyrics

Feel the wind blow
I can hear it in my left ear
Sounds like when you whispered to me
But you're not around here
Life is slow, sleepin’ twelve hours a day
Ayy since I had my surgery
It's never been the same
I'm sick and it sucks and
My friends barely visit
Every week that goes by
End up feelin’ more distant
Cried so many times, tryna chip away my fear
Prayin' when I'm sad
Thinkin' of our younger years
First night that you kissed me
Cuddle watchin' Disney
Now I wait at night for a
Text that you miss me
Every second is a blessing when
You're standing at my side
We didn't see this coming
It's okay to say goodbye

It’s okay to say goodbye
But I hate saying goodbyes
Would you stay here longer?
Sorry I’m not stronger

Speak to me with honesty
It's harder than we thought it’d be
Tell it to me straight, ayy
I don't want no "probably"s
Tell me when you're tired 'cause
I’m gettin' tired too
The rain is feelin' heavy and
The sky isn't so blue
Pills for my breakfast
Promisin' they'll heal me
Hanging out with doctors and
Starin' at the ceiling
My favorite days are Mondays
When you come and see me
Wish you would stay longer but
I know it's not easy
Yeah, I was excited for that concert
Tell me all about it
Did they sign your new Converse?
I don't wanna let go when we hug
One thing worse than dying is
Losing who you love

It's okay to say goodbye
But I hate saying goodbyes
Would you stay here longer?
Sorry I'm not stronger

Noticed all the pain you had to deal with
Was sick of all the doctors lyin'
Sayin' that you'd heal quick
It's been a couple days since you
Left us in that hearse
Your girl just called me
Said she's pregnant and that
Would've been my first
So shocked when she told me
Why didn't she tell you?
She thought you'd leave the world thinkin'
Your promises have fell through
You always talked about how you
Were ready for a son (For a son)
Now you'll be watchin' over him
Free of pain hope that one day he'll look
Up and feel your love
(Look up and feel my love)

When I get to heaven I will wait for you
Sorry for the things that I put you through
You had to watch me flatline
Wishin' that we had time