PRXJEK - Venting At 3 AM lyrics

Don't wanna be like all the rest of
Y'all and do the same thang
You see this rap shit's all I've
Got's for a plan B
Hella bullshit in my life happened
And I ain't planned it
Too many care about the money
And the fucking status
Sometimes it pains me to see
Them plottin on my downfall
That's why I'm always ready to fight
The way just like south paw
Caught up in the down pour
Wish I would go out more but I'd rather
Be at home alone and honestly it's madness
Cause lately I've been feelin like a waste of days
So much time passin
Watchin family gettin older my heart
Fill in up with sadness
At the thought of losin 'em but
I know it's a battle
I can wear these thought I have
Are darker than my shadow
But you see you think about too much
About this shit it drives you crazy
Unfortunately this is the shit
I think about daily
A couple more years for
My grandmother I'm prayin
Cause since grandpa passed the
Energy been fadin
And I don't really vent like this
As often as I should
They ask me if I'm alright I give
A smile and say I'm good
But deep down I'm feeling hopeless
Yea I'm so misunderstood
Truth be told I would've armed
Myself ready if I could
I've been losing strength so I
Won't have none to expect
Lost a piece of me on the
Day I lost my best friend
And still at night I cry in silence
Even though its been a year
They can keep on talking all this
Shit I honestly don't care

(Do you know what it's like to stare yourself in the mirror, living afraid awake at night is it like are you scared, never know when the reaper goin appear, wait until life's granted damnit we unaware)