R.A. The Rugged Man, David Myles - Wondering (How To Believe) lyrics

We're al- we're all wondering, how to believe

I'm wondering about the horrors
In the world that we witness
And what's the purpose of our
Babies being born into sickness
My cold world of stalactites
And spikes of icicles in a house of disease
And handicap blind cripples
I watched half my family die
The shit we been through
I lost my brother, my sister, my cousin
My nephew i watched the hearse come when my
Sister lost her first son
The tragedies in life are the
Lessons that we learn from

We're all wondering (yeah)
How to believe (How to believe)
We're all wondering how to believe
We're all won-

A freshman girl named Jenny
Had a school crush
She hit up his Facebook She
Finally got the guts
To her surprise he replied and
He asked to meet up
And he was fast hands all on
Her she couldn't keep up (We're all won)
She said slow down he said no
Way it's about to go down
Jenny tried to push him off he
Shoved her to the ground
She tried to bite him and fight
Him with nowhere to run, hide
He overpowered her and pounded
And thrusted inside
He busted inside tonight a
Piece of Jennifer died
When he was done she walked away
As she stumbled and cried
Don't want the papers to name her
Or a neighborhood to shame her
She didn't tell her parents she was
Scared that they would blame her
A month went by depression and self hatred
Seeing flashbacks of being
Forcefully penetrated
The face of the rapist in her
Brain she can't take it
Looking through a drawer for a razorblade
But not to shave with
(We're all won-won-won)
Her blood leaked down the sink faucet
Her life ended still the
Rape was never reported
That's why the rapist coward was never outed
In fact he remained free and
Even bragged about it
Told his friends about this hot
Fling with this hot thing
Around town he was the man, the school jock
Prom king the nerve with him
Woman in town they worshipped him
The worst part is that Jenny
Was only his first victim

We're all wondering
How to believe (How to believe)
We're all wondering (yeah, yeah)
How to believe (How to believe)

Yo
Now our parents are pill popping unapologetic
And the neighborhoods are infested
The heroin epidemic
And little Eric started cutting
Classes and then the
Heroin entered his bloodstream through
His nasal passage
And every time his mom looked inside
His eyes she would cry
Beady eyed, pupils small, nose runny
Mouth dry picking scabs off his body
Everyday getting high
Glory of the euphoria nausea
When it's missing
No Resistin' the itchin' for a
Fixin' of the addiction
His momma looking through his
Baby pictures and reminiscin'
So his mom got him rehab, it got him sober
He went back to high school
Tryin' to get his diploma
It appeared this nightmare might
Be finally over
Then he sniffed a bad batch and
He fell into a coma
Six months in a vegetative state no closure
Complications in his lungs then
He died from Pneumonia
Mommas baby boy born innocent and wholesome
Used to change his diapers and
Breastfeed him and hold him
She reminisce of little league when
Eric hit a home run
Why should a mother have to live to
Bury her own son I'm wondering

We're all wondering
How to believe (How to believe)
We're all wondering (yeah, yeah)
How to believe (yeah) we're all wondering
How to believe (How to believe)
We're all won-