Rapsody, J. Cole - Sojourner lyrics

Aba ba ba ba ba ba
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Mhmm, mhmm, mhmm

Oh, I swam for miles
Only to realize the current
Is fightin' against me and I'm so tired
I'm floatin' now oh, from here on out
I've got to realize the power
Of learnin' to let go, and just let God
Enjoy the ride

Yeah, look born into pain, alcoholic veins
Over-analytical brain a product of the shame
And runnin' from a past
That's checkered like the game
Somewhere 'long the way somebody snatched
My peace and main maybe that's the reason I
Spent decades seekin' fame


And fortune hopin' that a
Proper portion would contain
The sadness in my eyes, remember when I came
In this music business
All their questions was insane
"Why you never smile in
Your pictures?" I refrain
From givin' you the answer 'cause
That answer wasn't plain
Enough for me to see 'cause at
The time I knew my name
But didn't know myself
And so I dealt with shit the same
As a fugitive
But running from the truth and shit
I shoot the shit with niggas
But they never knew the
Shit that's hidden deep
Within the crevices like ever since
I was a child
Seen my mama with the pistol pointed
At her dome and how
In the fuck do you expect for me
To ever be the best lil' me
That I can be, when trauma's
Deep inside of me
Like IV fluid Pumpin' through
The blood of wifey, while she's givin' birth
To my child
I know my thoughts are runnin' wild
Bear with my style, this just a trial run
Just heard these kids don't
Know 'bout Malcolm
And I'm sort of heartbroken 'cause the
Elders lost hope in our youth
And here I sit dead in the middle
Not a little boy no more
But not quite old yet
Wakin' up in cold sweats
Scared that I'm too disconnected
From the kids' perspective
The world ain't got no patience
For some shit that's introspective
So where in the fuck
That leave me? Irrelevant, i guess
Went from Heaven-sent to hella
Bent, intelligent but stressed, damn

Oh, I swam for miles
Only to realize the current
Is fightin' against me and I'm so tired
I'm floatin' now oh, from here on out
I've got to realize the power
Of learnin' to let go, and just let God
Enjoy the ride

One more time
Swim good, enjoy the ride (yeah)
Every day I rise, thank God that I am alive
(yeah)
Yeah, swim good, enjoy the ride (yeah)
Every day I rise, thank God that I am alive
(Uh)

Permanent vacation for forever
Some things you gotta leave behind
Some people just like weather
And seasons, for that reason
I know I'll always have a leg up
Weatherman forecast me dead last
Think I'm just another nigga
Maybe, I'll be the next Black
Beatle like Swae Lee yeah, I know my worth
These colonizers got to pay me
Yeah, I had to go first 'cause
The rest would never last
I had to show the positives
For those that couldn't add
Lookin' at the ads
They only love us if our ass
Out and so I'm out
I got an Audi and it's bad
I said that line 'cause niggas only
Respect you if you brag
It don't work on me the same
Don't give a fuck 'bout what you have
Everybody claimin' boss
None of you niggas got no staff
It don't measure up the same
What's a quarter to a half?
Of a whole lot of problems, nigga
Who taught you to add? Where I'm from
We don't recognize that it's good math
If you don't teach the ones that's
Comin' up to multiply their cash
Think for themselves, think beyond sales
Everything with worth don't come with
Some whistles and some bells
The ones I gotta leave behind
The ones you gotta bail
Meek Mill, I'm workin' hard
Ain't too far from a meek mil'
To keep it real
The realest niggas I know always kept it real
And I'ma tell you
Black-on-Black murder been whack
9th, turn me up so they can
Hear me in the back
Yeah, and that's pretty hard for me
But you see hopeful niggas and where
They all ought to be scared to grow wings
Birdman with a bunch of Carter beef
That's old news, look, nigga
You talkin' to modern me
Smarter, we had better conversations
Sittin' with barbers
Puttin' hearts and heads in niggas
Who don't think ahead, who taught you?
School y'all, school y'all
Welcome to the schoolyard
Teach you how to make moves
Without needin' a U-HAUL
I was on you all when I was growin' up
Now it's you all that's all on these nuts
I'm ballin'
Havin' a ball and I got the balls to say it
Who needs inspiration where you know
When you can play it? Carolina to the heart
Nobody here gon' play us
The day that we expire
Carolina's where they'll lay us
I woke up feelin' like Aaliyah, yeah
A million and one bucks
Told these niggas I don't give a
Single million and one fuck, rap

Oh, I swam for miles
Only to realize the current
Is fightin' against me and I'm so tired
I'm floatin' now oh, from here on out
I've got to realize the power
Of learnin' to let go, and just let God
Enjoy the ride