Rexx Life Raj - Reappear lyrics

I wrote this album tryna work through
All the shit that happened
A lot of it written in the
Same room my Mama passed in
Around one in the morning they
Brought the body bag in
But I still feel her spirit in
The same place she had been
A lot of friends that I thought would
Barely tapped in
It kinda closed my heart off. It's
Hard to let 'em back in
I try to set aside my
Pride and slay the dragon
But it's hard to look at you in the
Face and act like it ain't happen
I really only like a few songs on this album
All these feelings still inside me
Wanna go in-depth about them
At the samе time
One of them anything rеcords
Might hit the chart
It might be a hit
But that shit don't hit me in the heart
Put the candy in the medicine, tryna be smart
But sometimes it be hard
Commodifying the art
Being transparent ain't a walk in the park
But it'll help somebody else when
They walk through the dark
They wore a mask, scared of what Corona do
I wore a mask to try cover
Up what I was going through
Every single day waking up feeling horrible
Thoughts in my head be just as loud
As the Oracle when Klay score
What happened to all the healing
That my mama prayed for?
I thought you would fix things
It got me feeling strange Lord
Tell me what we were supposed to
Gain from all this pain Lord
The tears feel like rain pourin'
I dropped to the baseboard
Thirty years with you, at least I had that
In studio sessions having flashbacks
Tryna process you not being here
And then Dad passed
Within three months
Shit happened so fast, it was hard to keep up
It seems like just yesterday
We was inside that Nissan truck
Hitting the speed bumps
You tried to teach me about
Carburetors and heat pumps
But I was too busy on fruity loops whipping
Beats up to get my hands greased up
Now I'm living up everything
That we dreamed of
The thing about grief is it
Don't have a warning
It comes as random as birds
Chirping in the morning
To be honest I'm not
Looking forward to performing
If it's finna come with the
Same feelings I had recording
I ain't really need too much
I just need ears
Laying down my verses in the dark
So they don see the tears
I could feel my energy is off
Even with my people here
I just think I'm actually depressed
I wasn't being weird
Tryna let it all out in hopes
That I'll be free and clear
But what I went through last year
I'm probably gon' need a year
I'd rather be in motion, than to be In fear
Wishing somehow all these verses
Would make you reappear