Rhyme Asylum - Don't Wanna Be lyrics

I take life for granted
Made mistakes in the past

Found my way through the dark
And only by closing my open
Eyes and taking a chance
I wanna make my family proud
And show those that I love
That I ain’t standing round
I hate backing down, hate lashing out
Hate that I hate so much –
What is this hate rant about?!
I don’t wanna be this negative person
Pessimistic, perfectionist obsessively
Working always anxiety ridden
It’s like my mind’s in Rhyme
Asylum inside of a prison
It’s a blessing and a curse
I just want us heard and to
Get the respect that we deserve
I need to stop and breathe
Cos in reality there ain’t nothing stopping
Me be what I wanna be

Don’t make me be, don’t make me be
Don’t make me be, don’t make me be

I'mma go it alone, on my own rowing this boat
No-one to throw me a rope
Feel like I'm lost at sea tryna make waves
On this endless expanse of monotony
And I gotta be what I wanna be
Or else it’s like telling my
Heart not to beat
Telling my lungs not to breathe
Inspirations an island just beyond my reach
Chances are few and far between
On an ocean with nowhere to plant my seeds
And you reap what you sow it’s getting dark
I keep an eye on my beacon of hope
Hope in every vein and capillary
My message in a bottle is my
Name on the pages of history i got two ores
One named determination and the
Others name is ability

This me ain't the way that I wanna be
Now I know it's the way that I gotta be
I've had my heart broken before
Another persons actions controlling my
Emotions and thought
Love is a battlefield - I'm a soldier at war
People saying "I don't know him no more"
The old me's dead and gone
I got away with murdering him
So my split personality holding the fort
Now I gotta look deep
My older said "don't regret
Anything that makes
You smile that's how it should be"
And so I took heed now I live my life
A different guy but miss the
Nights I could sleep thinking isn't it funny
I used to be in control but
I'm driven by women and money
In this eternal search for a pot of gold
Where I've lost my soul and
My hearts gotten cold