Rhyme Asylum - Holding On lyrics

Tears appear as I’m alone in the dark
Haunted by suicidal thoughts and all of
The ghosts from the past
Heart broken in half, I’m internally bleeding
Searching for reasons why my angel
Turned into a demon soul mates is a myth
There’s more chances for a blizzard
Of identical snowflakes to exist
Hold blades to my wrists
Separate soul from my flesh
Sick of trying to cope with
The stress and showing regrets
So-called friends posing a threat
Cut the cancer out ya circle before
You’re pushed over the edge
I take steps closer to death
Had a head-on collision with depression and
Was left as an emotional wreck
Try step in my shoes
Walking through a wilderness
Of endless winter, weather reflecting my mood
These are just confessions of truth
Expected to lose
So I watch the world with a negative view
I’m a dead man walking
Spirit dragging my carcass
Wish I shared the same fate
As Natasha and Margret
I don’t pray, cos God isn’t listening
My father forgets his sorrow
Swallowing bottled oblivion
No model civilians in these turbulent times
Not afraid of death
I’m afraid of the journey of life
And my words to the wise stand strong
And as long as fire burns in
My eyes I’m determined to fight
Most of the time it seems life’s going wrong
We feel like outcast and we don’t belong
We need to vent that’s why we wrote this song
I hope I’m strong enough to keep holding on
Most of the time it seems life’s going wrong
We feel like outcast and we don’t belong
We need to vent that’s why we wrote this song
I hope I’m strong enough to keep holding on

I've been searching blindly to find myself
For many times I felt like my life was hell
I even cried for help, I’m down everyday
And now very afraid from how memories fade
I refuse to live in poverty, but feel guilt
For wanting an easy way out
And win the lottery
Trying to drown the pain
But I’m sinking so deep
Wanting things I can’t have and
Having things I don’t need
I’m lonely at times
And I’m needing some luck
Developed thick skin from
Receiving tough love
Some people are blessed with better lives
I zone out
With no sound when I rest my head at night
Hoping for better dreams
But, I’m so stressed waking up in cold
Sweats when I attempt to sleep
We live in war and rest in peace
Using hope as a shield when
Swinging swords against the Beast
Wonder if I got a tragic life ahead of me
Cause on my roads to riches
Traffic lights are never green
My imagination is restricted by a migraine
When I try paint the perfect
Picture in my mind frame
Dreading how times change
Friends using drugs and alcohol as
Anaesthetics for life's pain
In the back of my mind, wanting to reach back
To ‘03 and recapture all my happiest times
Most of the time it seems life’s going wrong
We feel like outcast and we don’t belong
We need to vent that’s why we wrote this song
I hope I’m strong enough to keep holding on
Most of the time it seems life’s going wrong
We feel like outcast and we don’t belong
We need to vent that’s why we wrote this song
I hope I’m strong enough to keep holding on

In a spiral in downward descension
Drown in depression
No amount of counseling sessions could
Ever bound my aggression
Crushed by a powerful tension
I don’t see sheep at night
I’m too busy counting my blessings
Lost and alone, enclosed, boxed in my zone
Cold as the frostbitten glow given
Off by a ghost
Feel ungrateful complaining about my
Status of living when each day people die
In disgraceful conditions
I guess it’s all relative
My thoughts negative
I channel raw messages just to form sentences
Life's my sworn nemesis I even admit
Sometimes I wish to bleed from my
Wrist and cease to exist
Hold issues close to my broken heart
Am I walking a chosen path? I
Can’t embrace fate with open arms
Emotions charged, breaking the curse
Sense the pain of the Earth but
I can’t explain it in words
I’m battling demons inside
Searching for unachievable reasons to
The meaning of life
Clueless as to when I meet my demise
Feelings behind my insecurities stop
Me seizing my time
I can’t sleep through the night
My dreams are denied
As the tears begin to seep
From deep in my eyes
Slowly losing strength in my grip
Fingers slipping from the edge of the cliff
Falling into the endless abyss