Rhyme Asylum - I Know lyrics

My whole life I was lied to
That's the reason I've spent most of my
Whole life trying to find truth
I'm suicidal, headed for my grave
When I put the blades edge onto my veins
Ignoring anything they say
All the jealousy and hate
My character get judged from
Expressions on my face (For real)
I'm thinking back and remembering the days
But eventually my memories will fade
And since entering the game (I know)
Things will never be the same
The world gets pleasure from my pain
My girl left and everything has changed
Now my blood boils with every
Mention of her name (It's that deep)
I'm torn between a devil and a saint
Now there's countless doubts about myself
Embedded in my brain and I'm going crazy
Surrounded by loved one's but I'm the only
Person that I know that hates me
Killing me inside, thinking I'm alive
Living just to die
Wanted to give up, pick up, run from home
Uncontrolled was such in rush to grow
There are so many people in
Life that come and go
Very few people in life that touch your soul
So, by giving up I'm letting myself down
I question myself, am I heaven or hell bound

I know
That life's hard and it keeps getting harder
I got questions I'm seeking an answer
The truth hiding deeper and darker

I know
That life's hard and it keeps getting harder
I got questions I'm seeking an answer
The truth hiding deeper and darker

My soul died the day I opened my eyes
Exposing the lies and realized this
World is colder than ice
I try to take control of my life
But gotta go with flow cos I know
It's like the roll of a dice
Lost all hope multiple times
But, I'm soldiering by cos I know
It's my goal to survive
Most of the night I lie
Awake facing the ceiling
Can't fall asleep torn between
Angels and demons
I'mma walk till I fall to my knees
And if I fall I will stand tall
Like a man born to succeed
Won't forfeit my dreams cos
Their worth the patience
I take the burning hatred and
Turn it straight into determination
The universe is supersized
While our planets stupid curse is more
Human wrongs than human rights
Religion's playing games
It's the opium of the masses
So I take the lords name in vein
We're all blind and cloaked in darkness
It's a straight fact that
Nobody knows the answers
Some trust in a holy father
Cos they were baptized
Shame they need to fear God just to act right
I guess that's life, it's strangely tragic
Just when you taste the magic
Before you know it fades to blackness
No one can know the facts
But one things certain
Nothing's gonna hold me back

In my life compassion is scarce
I'm trapped and ensnared in
This superficial Vanity Fair
Where tyranny reigns
I'm not comforted by phrases like
"God works in mysterious ways"
Hope deteriorates
The poor are getting poorer
Submerged tenth, we're stuck treading water
Depressive aura and corruption in
The hearts of men
Watching as half my friends
Turn into Harvey Dents
Will I suffer in silence? (No)
Born with half the blood but none
Of the luck of the Irish
And I need radical changes
Couldn't see the writing on the wall
Because my back was against it
I hate this not thinking positively
When we're taught with no college degrees
Tomorrow is bleak
I don't know what to believe
God don't offer relief
The Devil keeps following me
So, are there angels above?
I pray for heavens inhabitants
Hope that their praying for us
Depression, it runs in my genes
No matter race, colour or creed we
Struggle to breathe and underachieve
Alcohol arranged a meeting between my uncle
And the cousin of sleep
Suicide- the numbers increase
When I go the whole fucking
Globes coming with me so