Rittz - Press Rewind lyrics

I was just a kid from a
Small town west of Pennsylvania
'88 moved down to GA
Overwhelmed by the change
I got treated like stranger 'cause
I didn't fit in had a mullet
Getting made fun of by the other kids
My brother wasn't in the same
School to protect me 6th grade
Every day they would jump me in the gym
Finally got a couple friends
I was in and out of phases
Into heavy metal for a stint
Then I started singing Boyz I I Men
Playing Poison Clan
Really I just wanna be like them
So I went and brought a gun
In the school to be cool
Wasn't real but it looked like one
It was chrome but this kid Trovon
Took it from me
Making dudes take they shoes off
When he got caught better say it ain't mine
He said he wouldn't tell
I was in the office when they rung the bell
I had to go to panel
And probably get expelled
I knew I had to answer to
My father I was scared
He was known for raising hell
Hit me with an open hand or he whipped me
With a belt but today was something else
Quiet on the ride home when
We got into the house
I got swung into the shelf
Getting swung on, I was 12 tryna
Hide my face ditching uppercuts from my
Dad's punches making my nose bleed
With my sister and her
Neighbor friend watching, momma
Cry, but she
Knew it was one of many ass whoopings coming
I received can't hit the back button

There’s a pain way down
That’s been trapped inside
Let the pain drain out left the past behind
But sometimes my mind press rewind

'95 was the best year of my
Life that's without a question
My brother was a senior and
I was just a freshman
He would let me hang out with his friends and
Life felt normal for once
But the happiness I had only lasted a second
Mom and Dad separated same year
So my brother moved away when
We finally had our friendship
Made a lot of friends with
Kids in the same boat
No male role models for us to
Observe and be our guide
Dropped out of school, hit a learning curve
Relied
On each other trying to persevere in life
Insecurities are high feeling unloved
Searching for a girl that can provide
She wanna take it further
I'm worried that I'm gonna blow
My cover 'cause I
Said I'm not a virgin and I lied
I finally fertilized
Then she left me for another guy
But years flying by
Life is like a circus ride
We done did the worst
Too much dirt to purify
Mom was working nights
Helicopters circling outside
Lot of murders, lot of fights
Lot of nights heard the cries
From my mom's room
Household with no one in control
Everything crumbled
I was young but now I'm grown
Suddenly my brother and my father coming home
And it's so unreal
When we're all together you can
Feel the tension and it's unfair
Started fighting at my brother's
College graduation but it goes unsaid
When you love each other
Ain't no conversation, hated
All those years wishing I could erase them

There's a pain way down
That's been trapped inside
Let the pain drain out left the past behind
But sometimes my mind press rewind