Rothstein, Deadmalls - You loved me back then lyrics

It tears me to pieces to stay open
You left on my aorta
Hard to believe that you didn't notice
All that I lost to be less guarded
All of the ways that we hurt each other
You in your dorm room rolling over
Woke up electric was still hopeless
Speaking so honest but still coated
My eyes get big like?
I wanna fall in love with you
? seductive to stay lonely
Think of the photos we never save
Relegated there's a face slowly
Spend the summer out of state lately

I wanna get better don't know if it matters
I want it forever don't know how to get it
I wanna get better don't know if it matters
I want it forever don't know how to get it

I know i used to kwo you
Maybe it's been longer than I thought
I was pretty sure we were growing together
Guess we had just grown apart
I got a lot of songs to show you
I'm still trying to play my part
If you wanna go then the door is open
I'm not tryna break your heart
Simple learn to remain lonely
Simple learn just to never start
Scary is to resist only
To guess I didn't get torn apart

I'm making excuses, I want you bad
Still mourning for girls that I never had
I'm getting older, still falling fast
I'm trying for something that never lasts
I'm making excuses, I want you bad
Still mourning for girls that I never had
I'm getting older, still falling fast
I'm trying for something that never lasts

You used to look at me like Christmas morning
I slept at your mother's house
I miss how we snuck around