Royce da 5'9" - Merry Go Round lyrics

I have tried in vain, never had success
So it seems my life is nothing but a mess
I have lost, my only friends
Now it seems I have to start again
Merry go around

My life's been going around
'n' round since '95
Went from going somewhere to about to die
Went from calling my chick a chicken
Cause she look like she got
Poultry around her thighs
To calling your piece a chicken
Cause she got no teeth
And she got crow feet, around her eyes
How hard are y'all? I got a
Heart the size of Arkansas count to five
These birds gon' hit the ground and
They ain't from out the sky
Went from having an outta-this-world-flow
To doing a video doing the coon dance
To watching' my good friend
Eminem winning' a moonman
I remember cause I was in New York with
All of my boys to start shit
Letting 'em stay with me, long story short
They tore up my corporate apartment
Went from being a kid addicted to basketball
To being an ignorant nigga
Addicted to alcohol round and round we go is
How this movie would end
Self-proclaimed King of my city
Not really just truly the King
Of losing a friend
Who woulda thought this dude in the park
Who's true to his art would lose
Or win just by giving his thoughts and views

I have tried in vain, never had success
So it seems my life is nothing but a mess
I have lost, my only friends
Now it seems I have to start again
Merry go around

You would hear that Ryan's skilled
Might even hear Ryan kills
You will never hear Ryan Stills
Here to put the "i" in ill
My mind is still like a merry-go-round spill
Like leaving only guns to my
Kids when I'm killed, i got an iron will
Intellect of Zion
I done went too high on pills
To triumph, to hiding from bills
To buying buildings
Then I went from writing for Dre to
Wondering if my head was on straight
On the sidelines feeling forgot about
Listening to "Forgot About Dre"
From there I went to about a bottle a day
Telling who we know "Get outta my face!" okay
I know what Kino said about Dre
I look at Kino to this day
Like that was a stupid mistake
But if it wasn't for him doing that
What would I be doing today?
If it wasn't for Cashis saying that
He gonna beat my ass
Then me and Em probably wouldn't be
Laughing 'bout us getting past it
If it wasn't for me being outcasted I woulda
Never been on the underground
Rapping with SLAUGHTERHOUSE!

I have tried in vain, never had success
So it seems my life is nothing but a mess
I have lost, my only friends
Now it seems I have to start again
Merry go around